Promise

dopamine

For the past 3 hours I did nothing except listening to music, reading notes from my notes app and texting seunghan.
"I'll pick you up" was all he said, but I don't mind, I haven't seen him in months and there's a lot I haven't told him yet. Plus the last time he saw me, I was in a really bad state. Mentally and physically. I was so weak I could barely stand up.

Taesan and I texted a bit too. But neither of us talked about our feelings. But there's no place for feelings anywhere anyway.
My phone might be taken away at Hybe, if my debut is actually set to be. So I'm worried taesan might think that I'm ghosting him. But I can't tell him the truth now. Not after I lied to him.
I could see seunghan waiting for me at the entrance of Seoul central station he still looks the same. But his expression was cold as he looked around, until I saw him finally finding me in the crowd.

"MINJI" he yells and runs to me. Before I could even yell back he hugs me. And I realise I almost forgot his voice.

After walking out of the station Seunghan and I talked a bit more.
"So you got accepted by Hybe again? That's crazy" he says.
"So you're going there now or will you stay somewhere else?" He asks.
"I have a private audition with some coaches tomorrow. Just to talk about some stuff. Until then I'm staying at a hotel, in myeongdong." I tell him.
"Woaaa you even get a private audition. They must really really want you minji" he says fascinated but I could only grin.
"Anyway let's talk later about stuff like that, let's get a cab" he says going on his phone.
"Okay got one, will arrive in 3 minutes"

Once we arrived in my hotel room, seunghan helped me settle in, the last bit of luxury before going back to Hybe. It's almost dreamy in this perspective. Plus I have a view over the street food market.

Seunghan doesn't have a curfew anymore, so it's normal for him to stay outside till the morning. Since he's already set to debut, he's got a different schedule than other sm trainees. As long as he attends those specific classes everything's fine.

"So tell me, how was your life? Was it weird living like a normal teen? Did you miss training?" Seunghan lays down on MY bed and immediately asks all the questions flooding in his head.
"It was bad at first. Everything felt so off, and I felt out of place the whole time. But I made a friend and suddenly everything was fine. But as much as I missed training, I'm glad I took a break" I confess. During my time at my mom's place I didn't dance, I barely sang except for when Taesan and I went karaoke. I didn't do anything except healing. But that's enough I think.

"You make it sound like you hesitated to come back" Seunghan chuckles. But I didn't say anything
"Really?" Seunghans eyes wide open,
"You really hesitated?" He asks again
"It's not like I don't want the idol life anymore. I just realised that I'm okay with an ordinary life too you know?" I answer
"Did you fall in love" he sits up smiling.
Maybe
"I don't have time for love seunghan" I say. But I could only think of taesan in the back of my mind.
"So you did" he grins. It's the typical seunghan grin, and whenever he does that he keeps resembling a cat more.
"What about you?" I ask him
"What about me?" He says confused
"Did someone steal your heart?" I poke his cheeks
"I'm too busy for that," he smiles. And I keep forgetting that seunghan will really debut. I still haven't digested rikis debut.

"Can you do me a favor minji" seunghan says after a while
"Sure" I answer
"Do you mind posing as my girlfriend once?" He asks going on his phone.
"Can I ask why?" I laugh
"I'm in this stupid bet with my bestfriend, whoever gets a girl first" he explains
"I just need a picture, I can blur your face" he says.
"Sure I don't mind" I sit up in front of him.
"You okay with kissing?" He asks
I had my first kiss already anyway, and it's not like seunghan isn't attractive. I don't mind kissing him
"Yeah" I answer, almost a second after seunghan presses his lips on mine, taking a picture of us both. But even after the picture was taken, neither of us pulled away. Until I couldn't breathe anymore.

Poopybutt

*image attached
Even booked a hotel room, beat that😛

That was fast
Okay you won

"But make sure he won't leak anything. If your face is visible you might get into trouble" I tell him after pulling away.
"He would never do that, I've known him since I was little" he laughs

It's getting late, seunghan and I got comfortable on my bed
"Are you nervous, because of the audition?" He asks sleepy
"Not really if I'm being honest" I say, even more tired than him after my train ride
"There's nothing to lose anyway"

"Did you prepare anything?" He asks
"Yeah, for dance I decided to do freestyle to a song I wrote since I had no time to prepare. I'll sing eyes, nose, lips by taeyang and for rap I didn't prepare" I count. And if I'm being honest I don't know if that's enough for them to officially accept me but if that's the case, I know where to go.
"Woah you're still making songs? That's sick" he says suprised
"Well if they don't accept you as a trainee they have to offer you a job as a songwriter"

Taesan.