During long car rides like these I keep making up scenarios about how my life would've been if I had made different choices.
Right now I can't help but overthink about how I could've saved mine and rikis friendship.
Ever since I started training at Hybe entertainment, I've started writing lyrics in my notes App. Wether it's Songtexts or my thoughts.
~I missed the chance again, I called your name
As if you'd come right back
I swear you're in my head
throughout the day
I can say that for a fact
Know we had better days, but to keep me sane
I guess that this is just another love song
about you~
I have tons of these in my notes. It helps since I cannot tell Riki these things. And I know even if could, right now he wouldn't like to hear it.
„What got you thinking so much?" my mom wakes me from my daydreams
„Nothing just, wondering how my New school is gonna be like" I made up a lie
„You were online schooled the past few months, it's normal to overthink school, but keep in mind the schools in Korea are very determined to make the best students. You can't lack a single bit here, like you did back in Germany" there she goes again. Always ruining my mood. And I know that she's right, I just hate the way she says that I'm a failure.
I learned to just keep quiet in these situations. We still have 2 and a half hours until we're in Busan, maybe I'll write more thoughts or I'll sleep.
During the hours I couldn't sleep I actually thought about how my new school. I was afraid since the bullying here is on another level. But I'm sure I'll be fine.
I'll be alright
YOU ARE READING
Promise
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