Promise

Sugarcoat

The Audtion went flawless. I was welcomed in Hybes studio by 3 coaches with huge smiles. "We're really happy to have you here Ms. Song" we're the first things said to me. I was treated like royalty. I knew immediately that this wasn't a normal audition. They wanted me. And they showed it. I danced to my self composed song, "sugarcoat". They were impressed by my ability to make music, dance and even sing. After a few seconds into singing a coach stopped me.
"We've seen enough" he said sternly.
And I wasn't quite sure if that's a good thing or not. Until he said
"Song minji, we want you on our next girl group project, you're the first member we've made our mind up with. And also the youngest"

The feeling I felt at that point couldn't be described with words. That was the feeling I had searched for my whole entire life. I felt wanted. I felt needed. Like I had a purpose.

I can't reach seunghan yet. He must've left before I woke up. And I have yet to tell him about the news. I wish I could tell Taesan about it. He was the first person that popped into my mind when I heard that they wanted me in their new girl group.

I quickly texted my mom about it, but she answered with a "I already knew you were gonna get accepted". I don't think I'm that great tho. They're definitely overestimating me but whatever pushes my ego !!
I decided to just text seunghan since I'm not sure when he's allowed to leave today

Got accepted. ;))

Thank god I didn't bring much, i couldn't handle bringing all my stuff back to Hybe on my own. And honestly, I'm not even nervous this time. Everything will be okay, just breathe

Seunghan
I knew it
Are you leaving today already?
I want to see you in person for the last time

I'm allowed to leave whenever, I'll stay the night at the hotel and leave tomorrow then !!

I texted him back, I want to see him for the last time in person too. With my upcoming debut and his tight schedule we won't be able to see eachother again for a long time.

I'm back in my hotel room, it's already dark outside and the pretty part of winter is over. December was for loving and healing,  January is for leaving.
Taesan texted me, but I'm not planning on texting him back at all. I can't even open the chat because I am so scared of what he might've said. What if he confessed to me? What if he's begging for me to come back? Taesan would never stop me from achieving my dreams, but he doesn't know that I am doing this right now.
And I can't help but tear up at the thought, that I am ghosting taesan.
Because as nonchalant Taesan acts most of the time, it will break his heart because he rarely ever opens up to someone.
And I feel so guilty for ignoring him now after he felt comfortable enough to talk to me, but I know it's for the better.