Seizing Freedom

Mike

Bobby's call made me nervous. I haven't felt nervous in a while, not since we got the new medication from Tyler's neurologist. He may still have daily seizures and a few bad days with more than one but their not nearly as bad. We've managed to deal with things how they are and it's just another part of our life.

I'm grateful that things actually worked in his favor for once. I know he's still skeptical that it will last but honestly I don't care if it doesn't.

When we went to see his doctor a week after he started him on the new medication I was surprised to find out that a lot of neurologists meet for conferences more often than you think to discuss tough cases. He said it helps them get a broader perspective on things that have been tried by others and find ways to help patients that they might not have thought of themselves.

Knowing that his doctor was invested in finding ways to make things better even if Ty had given up himself was really nice to hear. At least I wasn't the only one that had hope that things could always get better.

Not having to worry all day that he could drop at any time has been nice. I know that Chad has him safe in the mornings and will look out for him when he does. Its been a relief not having to worry about him all day long.

Now I'm worried about Bobby.

If there's something going on with the two of them this is really going to suck. I don't want it to get awkward at work when I see Charlie and I know girls, there's always drama when they break up. They can never just stay friends.

I haven't seen Charlie all day at work but that doesn't necessarily mean anything. I don't see her a whole lot, most days she's doing home checks, and supervised visits. I don't get to go out much, unless I'm asked to do an in house meeting with a certain family. Most of my days I spend checking up on kids already placed with families. While I don't do the home inspections I do most of the kids interviews.

I get to talk with them and find out what goes on in the homes their living in. Sometimes things look good on the outside and everyone puts on a happy face for the home inspection but one on one they tell me what's really going on behind closed doors.

It's not always easy but for the most part it's few and far between that you get a case that makes you wonder if you can really handle this.

Then you look at the kid sitting in front of you that is living in this situation and cant help but suck it up and do what you can to help them.

As much as I would love to grab those kids and run home with them, there's a system in place and I can't do that without being charged with kidnapping. Sometimes I hate the rules but I know their there for a reason.

I could have brought home a baby a couple weeks ago as an emergency placement but was glad when another co-worker jumped in and offered.

As much as I would have loved to take her home with me I know Tyler would have panicked immediately.