Unbottling

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Do you ever feel like you are surrounded by noise, but it is just empty? Like there is so much happening all around you, but no one is actually listening? I have spent a long time in that silence. It is the kind that makes you feel invisible, like you're just another face in the crowd, blending in with the noise but never being heard.

I used to tell myself that I was used to it. That I did not need anyone to check on me or talk to me. I convinced myself that being alone was fine, that maybe it was just how I was meant to be. But, deep down, it is not enough. It is not enough when you realise that being alone is not just your choice anymore, it is because no one else bothers to reach out.

It hurts, doesn't it? To be ignored, not just by strangers, but by the ones who should care. The ones who should notice the cracks in your silence and ask if you are okay. But they do not. And when someone finally does say something, when they pick at your quiet and make it feel wrong... Doesn't that sting more than just being left alone? It's like being told that your silence is not even allowed, like your existence itself is boring, and they have every right to point it out.I do not think I will ever get used to that. The feeling of being nothing more than a shadow in a room full of people. It is not just the loneliness, it is the rejection of it. It is like my silence makes me unworthy of attention, of being heard. It is like I do not even deserve the effort it takes to notice that I am here.

I wish it were easier to just let it go, but sometimes, I wonder if anyone ever really sees us.

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