Blossom in Adversity

C195. If You Don't Disappoint.

Chapter 195: If You Don't Disappoint

Gu Yanxi answered very honestly, "The former."

Hua Zhi fell silent for a moment. "I am actually very worried that you will be disappointed. Even if I agree to be with you, I still have to protect the Hua family and do everything I can for its survival. I cannot view my man as everything, prioritizing my husband above all else and even sacrificing my family's interests for it. You should know, I cannot do that."

"I understand, it's okay." Gu Yanxi's words were dry, even though he felt like victory was within reach, he couldn't be happy yet, fearing that Ah Zhi would come up with a "but."

"And for now, we cannot go through the formalities of marriage. Neither I can, nor can you."

"I can find a solution..."

Hua Zhi shook her head, "Unless your solution brings back my grandfather and father, it's not a solution. The formalities also require an elder to make decisions, and my mother doesn't count. Besides, I am still in mourning, I won't marry within three years."

"It's okay, I'm willing to wait."

The two locked eyes for a moment. Hua Zhi's smile held a hint of resignation. "It's almost like we're negotiating a deal. Luckily, both the buyer and the seller are content with the terms."

Sometimes, she envied those who would do anything for love. They were so brave, rushing towards the one they believed to be right, even if the outcome wasn't ideal, they stayed true to themselves.

Even in her past life, she, in her true youth, never experienced such moments. It's not that she wasn't regretful, but rather her personality prevented her. She also wanted to experience what it felt like to let emotions overshadow reason, but unfortunately, she had never been in a situation where emotions overpowered her rationality.

Hua Zhi looked at the man whose eyes were shining with joy, so evident that she felt she didn't deserve his sincere feelings.

Gu Yanxi, whose IQ had returned to its usual level, caught her self-disgust. He stood up and crouched in front of Ah Zhi, looking up at her, "We are not negotiating a deal, but discussing our lifelong affair. Ah Zhi, you have this feeling because you feel guilty."

Guilty... about what?

Hua Zhi looked puzzled.

Gentlely, Gu Yanxi tucked a stray strand of hair behind her ear, "You've always been strong and decisive in your actions, but you've never been able to firmly reject this matter, because from the beginning, you felt guilty. You thought you used me, believed your heart wasn't pure enough, so you feel guilty."

Hua Zhi gently bit her lip, not wanting to admit that it might be true.

Gu Yanxi smiled, "I'm actually glad you feel guilty. If you didn't, we wouldn't be where we are now."

"Don't you think this treatment of emotions is unfair?"

"I'm not evaluating my feelings in terms of weight, why should we seek equality in a relationship? I'm willing to do these things, I'm happy to do anything for you. As long as it's for you, I do it willingly. For me, that's enough. Isn't there a saying about willing to give and take? I'm the one willing to take."

Hua Zhi wasn't comforted at all; instead, she felt the weight of this emotion even more.

In her two lifetimes, she never wanted to owe anyone, but now, owing Gu Yanxi emotionally made everything more complicated. She couldn't even articulate her own thoughts anymore.

"Ah Zhi, your treatment of me isn't as bad as you think. You've done a lot for me, things that may seem insignificant to you, but they were significant. You know that, don't you?"