UNWANTED DEVOTION

LOVING HIM BACK DOESN'T SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE...

Kian... love doesn't work like this...

I know it doesn't, but I also don't know how it does.

... After that, everything was silent except Crystal's breath, which was mine too. Hearing the soft sound of her breaths kept me alive. I waited for her to get up.

More than two hours passed, and I just sat there without letting Crystal go anywhere. Nevan kept handling everything, trying to make me understand how the word "love" works, but I couldn't. How would I, when for me, everything was Crystal, even the word "love"?

Crystal's body moved slowly in my arms, and I let her stretch, moving a little away. She finally opened her doe eyes, and this time I didn't see hatred. Instead, she smiled and said...

"Hubby..."

I looked at her stunned, not knowing what happened. She asked me what the time was and everything so normally, like nothing happened.

Nevan gestured for me to come out of the room, and I quickly did, wanting to ask so many questions.

"I will be back, Birdy. Stay here, okay?" I said and slowly stepped out of the room before locking it.

...

"What is happening, Nevan?" I asked, and he looked at me before letting out a sigh.

"Kian, that was not any simple medicine. When you called me, I was doing someone's treatment whose medicine contains a drug that can make anyone sleep for a few hours, sometimes days, and it can also make small parts of memory wipe off for some time-not fully, but a heavy dose can make anyone lose their memory completely."

I looked at him for a few seconds, and my mind suddenly heard just those words: memory loss...

"Kian, don't think anything like that," Nevan said, understanding my thoughts quickly. "I said complete memory loss means she can forget you too."

Nevan's words froze me for a few seconds before I decided...

"Give her those, Nevan, or she will leave me. She needs to forget all this," I said. After a few minutes, he nodded his head. Opening the door, I brought the injection with me. Crystal was lying on the bed, closing her eyes.

I cuddled her, and she hummed slowly. I injected the medicine again without letting her know. She once again became totally unconscious.

I got out, and Nevan looked at me, asking with his eyes if it was done. I said yes.

Nevan was going to throw it away when he turned again toward me and said...

"Kian, those medicines can make her mental health bad..."

"What do you mean?" I asked, not understanding it fully.

"It can make her mad too..." he said. Suddenly, I ran toward him in anger, grabbing his collar.

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU SAYING?" I shouted, and he remained calm, looking into my eyes.

"Every medicine has side effects, Kian. There is a chance she can forget everything completely, and there is also a chance if her mental health deteriorates, it can be possible that she doesn't even forget everything."

"What are you saying, Nevan?" I said. Those tears, which had been dry, suddenly came back. "It is hard for me too."

"You have a choice, Kian. You can stop all this now, tell her, and she will understand, or continue this medicine, hoping that she will forget everything..."

"She won't, Nevan. She won't. Didn't you see how she tried to stay away from me? How she was saying she hated me? How she was crying and begging me to leave? She will leave me, she will..." I said, closing my eyes, my head resting against the wall. Tears kept falling from my eyes...