Let me help you[JENSOO]

21(pt1)

Lisa almost gave in to irrational panic when she ran out of the bar and couldn't see Rose nearby. But a moment later, the distinctive sounds coming from around the corner of the building told her the right direction.

The blonde stood bent in half and held onto the wall with one hand, finishing the agonizing emptying of her own stomach contents. Lisa wanted to go over and help her, but didn't have time, because the girl had already straightened up and on shaky legs went forward, where there were no cleared paths or street lights and, it seemed, after a couple of dozen meters the forest was showing.

-Rose, wait. - Lalisa didn't hesitate to rush after the girl, drowning in the snow up to her knees, but she began to catch up with her quickly.

Before she could grab the blonde's hand, or even touch her, the girl stopped herself and, letting out a painful sob, collapsed to her knees as if the last pillar supporting her as she walked had broken.

-I'm tired... I'm so tired.- Rose repeated as if in a delirium, rubbing her hands frantically with snow to wash away the blood.

-Rose... Rose, please... What are you doing? You're freezing.- Lisa looked just as crazy as Rose. She was shaking all over, but not because of the cold, but because of some uncontrollable anxiety about the girl and the desire to rake her into her arms and close her off from the world.

Throwing her jacket over the girl sitting in the snow, Lisa herself fell to her knees in front of her, grabbing her wet icy hands so that she would stop rubbing them. When Rose finally stopped trying to pull her palms out, and her gaze became more meaningful, Lisa moved very close to the snow, noting on the edge of consciousness how unpleasantly her pants began to get wet from the snow, but not paying any attention to it. With one hand, she pressed the girl's palms against her body to somehow warm them, ignoring her own trembling, and moved her other hand to her face, forcing her to look at herself. She had never seen so much pain and despair in someone's eyes before, and even more so, she did not think that she would ever see it in the eyes of a blonde, the same bold and self-confident Rose, who knows the witty answer to any question and is able to cheer up with one glance. And now this same girl is sitting in front of her, huddled into a painful ball and shuddering from silent sobs. And all this does not fit into her head.

-Rose, please, let's go back inside.- Lisa pleaded, making an attempt to pull the girl up, but she did not even move to get up.- You're sitting in the snow, and it's too cold in here. You're going to catch a cold, please get up...

-What's the point of that?- Park exhaled shakily and spoke in a barely audible voice.

She was clearly drunk. And she wasn't quite herself. But her eyes were clear, and her speech was clear, so Lisa didn't doubt that she was aware of what she was saying, but her words still seemed like nonsense.

-I'm tired. I'm so tired. What's the point of all this?- Rose kept whispering, staring into Lisa's eyes as if she could answer her questions.- Don't you see? No matter where I go or what I do, nothing works. I screw up over and over again. I'm useless, I'm totally useless. Nobody cares whether I'm there or not, because I can't give anybody anything.

-What are you talking about?- Lisa interrupted the girl.

She moved her other palm to the blonde's face, trying to look more closely into her eyes and make sure she wasn't crazy, but Rose flinched away from her, landing with her back in the snow but quickly assuming a sitting position. Lisa was glad at least that the girl was now partially sitting on her jacket instead of the snow.

-My life sucks.- Rose sobbed, wrapping her arms around her head. She sounded so unaccustomedly serious that Lisa felt even more uncomfortable.- I'm trying so hard... trying so fucking hard, but nothing is working. Nothing at all. My job is hell. Instead of doing what I've dreamed of doing my whole life, I have to clean up shit for corrupt assholes because I can't do otherwise. Relationships suck because I can't even find someone to love me.....