Her eyes were filled with fear and disgust. I looked into the sweet eyes with
so much sadness. I wanted to console her but she refused and walked away
from me. She wasn't upset with me, but she was too upset with herself to be
around me..
"I don't care about that, Aoey."
"Why did you do this? I told you not to interfere in my affairs. I don't want
you to know my dirty problem."
Dirty... I was mad at myself even more because I misunderstood her for the
past 3 days. It hurts me that she couldn't do anything to cure her.
"I know everything."
"No."
She pulled at her own hair in desperation. She did not know what to do. I
rushed to hug her but was pushed so hard by her anger.
"I told you not to touch me. Do not touch me. I am dirty."
"No, you're not dirty. To me, you are a naive girl. You are like a girl. Come
to me. Don't walk away,"
I told her and opened both my arms to hug her, I wanted her to come in. But
she shook her head. Her face and eyes were so confused. She looked like a
small bird shaken by fear and danger.
"Why do you lie to me? You saw those videos."
The soft eyes grabbed her own heart in pain. Her face was full of pain. I felt
the pain as much as she did. Why did I feel so much pain? How come I
cared so much about her?
"I can't be here."
She looked left and right nervously searching for something. She ran to the
closet and started taking out her clothes. I saw her nervousness and knew I
had to do something. I glanced at some sparkles in my bag. They were
Uncle Somkit's wives.
I needed to calm her down... As Aoey took out her clothes from the closet,
I walked behind her and touched both of her
shoulders and forced her to turn around. She was about to shake me, when I
quickly put her handcuffs on her. They clicked.
"What's that?"
Aoey looked at her hand in confusion. I quickly blocked her other wrist.
She was now locked by handcuffs.
"I'll keep you here."
She tried to take them off. I looked at her and sighed. You should know
better that the handcuffs won't come off easily. Even a bully couldn't get out
of it, how could she plan to get out of it?
"Can you calm down first?"
"I'm out of here."
"You are not calm enough."
"Let me go."
I pushed the sweet eyes to the other side of the closet door and blocked it
with my arm. I was so tired and now I had to handle it. I understood why
she was acting like that. But I wanted her to calm down and we would fix
the problem together.
"Where are you going? There's nowhere you can go. I won't let you go
anyway. You have to be here with me."
"Do not get close to me. I am dirty."
She tried to get away from me even though there was no room for her to
leave. I hated the word 'dirty' she used. I thought she would hate it as much
as the word 'stupid'.
"I never thought you were dirty."
I approached her and smelled the soap on her body.
"You smell nice."
"You know what I meant, Gen."
"What do I have to do to prove that I didn't think you were dirty?"
I never thought you were disgusting because of your bad experience.
"You didn't notice the way you looked at me the last few days."
The soft eyes looked into my eyes. Her eyes were now filled with tears. I bit
my lip and was angry at myself for looking at her like that.
"I was upset with myself."
"I'm very sorry for doing that. But now I understand everything. I didn't feel
disgusted with you."
I moved my face closer to hers. Now I could no longer suppress my sexual
instinct. I licked the tears from her face with my tongue.
"I didn't feel disgusted with you."
The smaller girl resisted. But her nervousness made me feel
powerful. I now understood men who abused women. I wouldn't treat her
like that, but it felt good and I was so much better than that old bastard.
"What are you doing, Gen?"
"Show you that I don't dislike you."
I gently touched my lip to her soft cheek and moved down to her bare neck.
She tried to resist, but I used my hand to pin her against the closet door. Her
resistance now felt weaker. Her soft eyes still weren't sure how to react.
Now I felt naughty and put my hand on her shirt and explored her chest
with my wet lips.
"Gen..."
"Where did you feel dirty?"
"I'll clean everything."
I looked into her eyes. Aoey looked surprised and shocked at the same time.
I smiled at her and jumped on me. I was on the defensive then, but now I
was on the offensive. I pretended I knew how to do that just to calm her
down. So it seemed like she knew what she was doing... Aoey didn't seem
to be a professional at this either. She followed my example. She was a little
shy, but that was cute. Now it was natural to follow how we felt. I didn't
know what to do either, but It flowed naturally. We both growled in our
throats. We were both breathing heavily. I paused and rested my face on her
shoulder as if I needed a break. Aoey didn't say anything. She just stared at
me the whole time.
"Do you feel better?"
I asked a little shyly.
"Yes."
She nodded.
"I'll make you feel even better."
I looked down at her wrists that were locked.
"I can't get close to you because your hands in the way."
"So..."
She raised her arms high and put them above my head and pulled me
towards her.
"Alright?"
I smiled. The soft eyes seemed to forget what happened before.
"What are you going to do?"
"Make you feel better."
I pretended to have so much experience in this even though I had never
done anything like this before. But I had to cleanse the wounds in her heart
or at least make her forget the pain for a short time. I touched my hands
gently on all parts of her body. My wet lips gently touched further and
further down her face.
"How about here?"
I asked.
"That too."
"Where else do you feel dirty?"
I knelt in front of her. Her soft-eyed face was now red. She bit her lip and
thought. Then she grabbed my hair with both of her hands and said
nervously.
"Here."
"I feel bad here."
I unbuttoned her shorts with my hands. I felt uncomfortable but in a good
way. There was no turning back from there. If I had the choice, I would do
it again and again. I looked into her eyes again. I looked at her obsessively.
I never did that before. I knew she could feel it too.
"From now on, don't feel bad again."
"Gen."
"Don't run away from me again. Otherwise I will be angry with you."
"What am I to you then?"
"Whatever."
I smiled slyly.
"Whatever makes you happy."
I touched her most sensitive part. She was stiff and unsure, but she braced
herself to stand.
"You're mine, Aoey."
"Ahhhh."
Her small body shuddered. Her body was so hot at that moment. Her moan
was low in her throat. Her hands that grabbed my hair tightened even more.
She woke me up to go deeper.
"Gen... it's..."
Aoey gasped and shuddered. I pressed my face against her midsection and
accelerated faster and harder.
"I can't stand anymore."
I stopped and looked into her eyes,
"Do you want me to stop?"
"Do not make fun of me."
I smiled and continued with what I had been doing before. Her moan began
to shake me. I didn't feel like myself either when I heard her moan. I wanted
more...what else could I do?
"Gen... I felt like I was about to explode."
Let it go.. I didn't say it because I couldn't stop doing what I was doing.
Finally, the first explosion hit her.
"AAAAAHHHHHHH."
The smaller girl screamed and sat up weakly. Aoey sat in front of me and
rested her head on my shoulder panting. I cradled her small face and looked
into her light brown eyes and smiled atahe "Do you feel better now?"
"I'm surprised..."
The soft eyes used their wrists intertwined on my shoulder.
"I didn't know I could feel this even if I had sex before."
"Forget it. Just forget it."
I gave her the best kiss I could have given her. She kissed me back
passionately. She put her arms over my head again and brought her lips to
my ears and whispered to me.
"Is it okay if I... want it again?"
She was so shy even though she tried to seduce me before. I smiled and
nodded.
"I also want to do more."
I smelled her bare neck and gently bit it seductively. The pleasant smell of
soap that I never thought I would be obsessed with was now turning me on
so much. I was still thirsty, so I unbuttoned her long-sleeved white pajamas.
Her soft skin showed because she didn't wear a bra when she was ready for
bed. But her arms were still cuffed and she couldn't take her shirt off. She
now only showed parts of her body. I wanted to explore those covered parts.
I was more pleased that she was totally naked. What else could I do? I
wanted her so much. I wanted to do more. The smaller girl was now shy
because I looked at her obsessively. She covered her face with her hands.
"Do not look at me like that."
"It's too late to be shy. I already did so many things to you."
I took her hands away from her face.
"Now I will do it step by step. Let me taste you."
I looked at it as a delicious dish. I pushed her to lie down on the floor,
raised her cuffed hands above her head, and opened her shirt in half. Her
shiny, smooth skin in front of me invited me to try. The light sweet smell
pleased me even more. Should I bite her? I wanted to destroy her.
"Ummm."
"Gen..."
I let a low moan leave my throat. I couldn't control myself. I felt like a
hungry animal that doesn't let anyone touch its food. Aoey was surprised by
that. I had to admit that I was lost in that lustful feeling. There was no more
Genlong snob.
I didn't know who I was anymore... I could be worse than Aoey's stepfather
when it came to my sexual instinct.
"Do not be angry with me. If I did something too harsh..."
I couldn't stop myself and bit her nipple.
"I don't know... ahhh, but I couldn't contain myself."
My heart was beating faster. I felt like I was about to drown with my short
breathing. I release so much heat from my body against hers. She didn't
respond, but her hand gripped my hair tighter. Maybe she was trying not to
shake my confidence.
"Alright. You can do whatever you want with me. Only you."
She pushed my head to the same lower position.
"Eat me... Eat me all you want."
Not that I needed approval, but once she gave the green light, I raised both
knees to make my way through..
"I'm going in."
Whatever I did, I did it to the end. I never left anything half done.. I
remember from when I was young, that I refused to do something if I wasn't
good at it. When I was young, my mom let me choose between learning
guitar or learning piano. I chose the piano because it was more luxurious
and not too hard on my fingers. I was so good that I won so many
competitions. I always wanted to be on top of everything. I learned to speak
more than 2 languages because speaking only Thai and English was too
common. I asked my dad to send me to China. I came back fluently. I chose
the best university in the country. I prepared and read books 3 years before
the actual exam. I wanted to enter the faculty of architectural design. I
learned and practiced drawing a lot until I entered. My dad celebrated my
success with a 2 million baht watch, probably the most expensive watch a
student could wear, just because I asked for it. I got into everything. I
always did the best I could. I've never done anything halfway until now...
Hey. I was shocked by what happened that night. I was now sleeping in bed
with her hands still cuffed. But she was restless with the mission half done.
I went into the bathroom and watched lesbian porn on the Internet. The site
was so unsafe with viruses and malware, but I saw it anyway and it made
me realize I made a lot of mistakes. Damn! Who would have thought I
would have sex with a woman? My God.. I did everything with my instinct.
We had our excitement flow, but my freshly painted rainbow nails stopped
them. Did I really have to explain what happened? There were many other
ways to get us to the other end of the rainbow, but in my opinion, the
mission was not complete. And now I looked at my stupid nails with
hesitation.
If I cut my nails, Aoey would be happy. If I kept my nails, I would be
happy. Which happiness was more important between Aoey and mine? I
was the cool girl with a beautiful manicure.nWhy did I care about the
happiness of others? I deserved to be happy, but why did I have to worry
about how other people felt? It was my happiness I would keep my
beautiful manicure!!
"Gen."
Aoey's voice brought me back. The soft eyes woke up and walked towards
me. She was surprised to see me resting on the toilet at 3 am.
"Yeah?"
"What are you doing?"
"I could not sleep."
Aoey looked at all the tools around me and became even more confused. I
had a laptop on my lap, nail polish remover in the sink, and a nail clipper in
my hand that I hadn't used yet.
"You should go back to bed."
"I want you to sleep next to me."
Her sweet voice melted me. We look into each other's eyes and walk away.
We just did something together.
"I'll follow right behind you. let me check something."
"What are you watching?"
"Nothing."
Aoey looked at the screen and her face immediately turned red. She
understood it right away.
"Why do you have to look at this?"
"I'm... learning something. I didn't complete the mission. Now I know what
it is."
"What is it?"
"Do I really have to tell you? It's a little awkward to say."
I looked at the nail remover and nail clippers in the sink.
"I have to cut my nails."
I immediately changed my mind when she stood right in front of me. Was
this the cool Genlong? I valued other people's happiness more than mine.
What a crazy idea!
I could write a novel. The girl who lost her manicure. I would beat the
famous Harry Potter. She gave me such a sweet smile. Her soft eyes giggled
and she nodded her head..
"OK I understand."
"Go back to bed. I'll follow you in a minute."
"Let me help you cut your nails."
The smaller girl grabbed the nail polish remover from the sink and soaked it
in a cotton ball.
"It's faster if I help."
All my doubts about my manicure were gone. I watched as the soft eyes
adoringly groomed my nails. I looked at her and wondered why everything
happened for the first time with her, my first friend.. My first lice... My
first concern... My first time having sex...with wives for the first time
"You're scared of me?"
I asked but didn't look her in the eyes. When I remembered what had just
happened, even I was afraid of myself. I never would have thought I had
that animal instinct.
"Did I look like I was scared?"
"Don't know. Maybe you don't want to talk about it. I don't want you to feel
weird about that."
I said embarrassedly.
"If you feel good about it, it will be good in the long run."
"Long-term? Does this mean this will continue?"
She didn't seem scared like I think she was. She was more relaxed knowing
that. At least I made her happy...I guess.
"Were you happy, Aoey?"
I asked and then immediately felt shy about my question.. Aoey paused,
then nodded and smiled.
"If I am happy. You are my happy machine,"
She said and gave me a sweet smile. My heart skipped a beat when I felt in
love. I would never admit it, but it happened.
"Hey."
"Yeah?"
I finally said something after a long silence.
"You're my first love, Aoey."
I said this while we were doing our manicure at 3 am in the
morning. It was the first time I told her that someone loved her
