It was another day that Genlong was still here...I was so paranoid all the
time that every time I woke up and didn't see my best friend. She was my
everything. Every morning when I woke up, I quickly checked the space
next to me in bed, she wasn't there, I quickly looked across a table where
her computer was. It was her place. I found the beautiful girl there, then
sighed in relief that Genlong was here.
"Don't run away from me again...."
I was upset because we didn't cuddle in bed. Lately, she's been paying more
attention to the computer and mouse than to me. I had to work hard to
seduce her and get her to pay attentionto me. Why was she so concerned
about making money? I told her it wasn't that necessary.
"Love needs money. I'm worried that I won't be able to take care of you."
Every time we argued, I gave up every time I heard that reason. She had me
as the main reason for everything she did but she didn't like to give
explanations. She didn't brag because she liked to be cool..
"Did you wake up long ago?"
I asked as she laid me face down on the bed and looked at Genlong, who
was drawing cartoons in front of her computer.
"Since 4 am."
She answered and didn't even look at me. I looked at the clock now and felt
upset... It was 10 am. She had woken up 6 hours ago and she was sitting
here the entire time. That was crazy. She worked too much. I didn't like this
version of Genlong.
"Gen."
"Oh?"
"Who do you love more, the computer or me?"
The handsome face finally turned to make eye contact. She smiled at me.
Her eyes showed that she hadn't gotten enough sleep. I planned to complain
but ended up feeling bad for her. I sighed.
"Of course I love you more."
"I love you but you have to rest."
"When I'm done with this episode, I'll take a long sleep... Oh, that would be
nice."
I got out of bed and gave my lovely princess a massage. Genlong closed her
eyes and relaxed. I wanted her to sleep so she could rest. She was a real
princess, a queen B, now she worked so hard for money even though I told
her not to work..My income from the book was enough to take care of us
both for the rest of our lives. But Genlong was afraid of being poor. She
was afraid that we might end up like before. She worked so hard that I
couldn't stand that I was the reason for this. That's how she must have felt...
when she found out that I worked on the construction site. She couldn't see
me like that, so she decided to leave me and help me from afar.
"Why do you stop?"
Genlong opened her eyes. Her eyes, which were as dark as the night sky,
looked at me in surprise. I smiled at her.
"My mind was distracted."
"What are you thinking?"
"I'm thinking about our relationship from the beginning."
"Since you were in Bangkok."
"I'm thinking about elementary school when I secretly admired you."
Now Genlong paid more attention to me. She stopped looking at her
computer and now she looked at me.
"Tell me. I wanted to know when you started liking me and how you broke
up with me."
I looked at my princess and smiled.
"What do I get if I tell you?"
"Why do I have to give you something?"
She asked but she understood when she saw my seductive smile.
"Yes... if you tell me a good story, you will have me."
"Okay, I'll tell you. Come here. Lie on my lap and rest."
Gelong looked at the computer. She was reluctant to leave her work, but she
finally came to the bed and rested her head on my lap. I gently touched her
face, I felt bad because her beautiful face had dark circles around her eyes
like a panda.
"I can still remember the first day we met... you walked into the class and
sat next to me. You called me Olivor. You said I was thin as an olive tree.
You said I was a beggar's daughter because I was poor."
It was so strange that I let another girl treat me like that and call me a
beggar's daughter. So I didn't feel like she looked down on me. I could be
thin and dirty. I didn't like to eat, so I was small. Pretty Face was a bad girl
but I understood her so I didn't hate her. Genlong was so bossy since she
was young. She was a good-looking girl, unlike the children in the interior.
She had shiny skin and long black hair, red lips and beautiful eyes. There
were so many boys and girls who wanted to be her friend. But they only
lasted for a while because Genlong was bratty and difficult. All my friends
couldn't hold it. Only me who stayed with her.
What was that for? I thought it was nice. He liked to share some expensive
snacks with me. Just for that....You are the daughter of a teacher. Why can't
you do this? Stupid. Genlong was a smart girl. She was good at everything.
I felt like she came to school just to get the certificate, but she knew all the
knowledge from the beginning. Even though I was being bullied, I felt good
being with her. I was proud to have a friend as beautiful as her. Like when
you had handsome parents. She was good at everything but... she had no
friends. No one ever wanted to do a task with her. She was bossy and she
never did anything she was asked. She was good at everything, but not in
terms of relationships. I was the teacher's daughter, so I had to pair up with
her for an assignment. She couldn't escape it.
"You do the work. If you do well, I'll buy you a new pencil case."
"No, it's a group project. We both have to do it,"
I said, but Genlong looked at me unhappy.
"I'll give you my golden electric pencil sharpener. Do it. I don't like group
tasks. It's too easy, they're only for stupid people."
She was a real bitch... I thought about when my friend from college came to
work on anassignment together. The princess was upset because my friends
took advantage of me. Shetotally contradicted herself. She didn't do her
homework either.
We were close for about 2 years in elementary school. Her father moved to
Bangkok in third grade. My sassy princess also moved in with her father. I
was very sad that she had to go, but not as sad as when I found out that I
had given her the lice. The sassy princess had to cut her hair because of the
lice I gave her. She made sure to get back at me in front of the entire class.
"We are no longer friends. I don't like you anymore. Miss Lice.."
I remembered very well how it felt to not be friends in that way. My eyes
were filled with tears as she continued to tell short-haired Genlong that I
was so sorry.
"I'm sorry Genlong."
When I approached her, she walked away in anger and disgust. The little
miss perfect who never did anything wrong in her life except those lice on
her head.
"Leave me alone. You gave me lice."
That was the last day I saw her at school. After that, I continued to live my
life as a normal school kid.
"Your crying face is always in my mind. I never erased that."
The sassy princess who was lying on my lap now said. I laughed when I
realized she felt guilty remembering those times.
"Yes, you were such a bad girl, but that's why I never forget you. I forgot
most of my childhood friends, but not you. I remembered my high school
friends better than my elementary school friends."
"I didn't have any friends in high school,"
Gen said..
"Oh really? You didn't have any friends in high school either. Why were
you so bad?"
The princess grimaced when she heard my comment. I laughed and kissed
her forehead lovingly.
"I can be friends with myself in the mirror. I'm a cool girl."
"Don't worry. I can be whatever you want me to be."
"You're flirting again."
The princess seemed shy as she extended her hand to touch my cheek.
"Still can't say why you like me. Why did you approach me when you came
to Bangkok? We lost contact for a long time."
"I met Si. She said she met you in Phuket and gave me your number. I kept
your number and thought of contacting you when I was on a tour bus going
to Bangkok,"
I said.
"I didn't have another friend, so I tried to call you but I didn't plan to ask for
help. I just thought talking to someone I knew in Bangkok would be good."
Genlong looked at me adoringly and touched my cheeks playfully.
"How lucky you met Si and he gave you my number. Otherwise, you would
never have called me..We wouldn't be together like this... But when did you
like me? Because you like me? Or did you start in elementary school?"
"You are crazy?"
"That is what I thought. Did you like anyone before you met me? I
remember you once mentioned that I was your first love."
I looked at the girl below me. I remembered the sassy princess wearing
headphones, pretending to listen to music. How did she hear that?
"I thought you listened to music back then?"
"Oh no... you caught me!"
Genlong touched her cheeks in embarrassment.
"I was nosy."
I laughed at her embarrassment, still remembering how I felt.
"I never liked anyone... I don't know why. Maybe because I had gone
through some bad experiences."
"Don't talk about that."
"Although I didn't have that experience, I thought I had never liked any boy
or girl. No one impressed me like what you said when we had pizza
together for the first time.."
"Imitator"
Genlong smiled.
"When did you start liking me?"
"Our first eye contact."
"Oh."
I first saw Genlong in a shopping mall where we made an appointment
when I arrived in Bangkok. I remembered looking at a woman who passed
me with full interest. She was wearing sunglasses, but she looked so
familiar. What made me even more excited was when she took off her
glasses and we ate pizza together. We both look at each other. I took out my
glasses to clean them, everything was blurry but one thing I remembered
well was her eyes looking at me.. Her dark eyes looked like bright stars in
the night sky.... Eyes that could swallow me whole..
"Aoey, put on your glasses."
"Oh."
"Put on your glasses."
I had no idea how excited I was to put my glasses back on and see her more
clearly. My heart trembled with excitement when we made eye contact. I
still wondered to this day. How did I fall in love with her first? So I never
showed any feelings. I've never met anyone who made me feel this way. I
thought I was excited to see an old friend who was as beautiful as a
celebrity on TV. I thought I was impressed with her beauty until we spent
more time together. We slept in the same bed. We hug, I knew we weren't
just friends. I was the one who knew it first.... Who expressed and knew
deep down that she had some feelings for me.... She showed in many ways
that she had feelings for me. There were many times I tried her but she was
afraid, so she ran away from the feeling of her and it hurt me.
"Stop calling my attention."
"If you like women, I will hate you too."
"If you don't go out with anyone, you have to get out of my life."
"Do not do this."
I remembered all that... other people might stab her with a knife, but I was
very patient. I wanted to be close to her, to be with her. I didn't want her out
of my life like before. Genlong was the most self-deceptive and secretive
girl I had ever met. She never expressed anything. We almost didn't make it
"You liked me the first time we made eye contact. What an easy girl!"
Genlong looked at me and smiled shyly. I liked to hear our story. Well, we
are all ashamed to hear our own stories.
"Gen, you also fell in love with me the first time we made eye contact.
Love, at first sight, is real..."
"And if I were a man, would you love me?"
"I didn't love you because of your appearance. I love you because you are
you, Gen."
I said. Genlong looked at me suspiciously.
"You are so Beautiful. Your beauty really struck me."
"And you too, Aoey."
We made eye contact and I leaned in to kiss her. Before moving on to the
next step, we paused because the bell at the front door rang. Genlong sat up
immediately.
"You could be my publicist. I ordered something online. I'll go look for it."
"Oh, my... I almost did it."
I watched the slender body walk away. I chuckled at her unsteady steps. I
still needed more rest. I always looked at her obsessively since elementary
school, college, or when we met.. I loved her and hated her at the same
time. I couldn't say I hated her, but it was a mixed feeling; love, hate,
revenge. I never understood why she left me even though we promised we
would be together no matter what and then there was that horrible letter:
For Aoey...
If you read this letter, you will understand why I have to go and leave you
behind. I thought that only Love will guide us through all the difficulties,
but it was not like that at all. I hate being poor.
Since I was born, I have never lived badly. When my family was in Korat,
my house at least was made of cement with many facilities in place. But
living here with you is not the same. It is not comfortable. I don't like the
wooden house that makes a squeaky noise when I walk. I feel hot during the
day... There's nothing good about it. I can't stand it....
This difficulty made me realize that I love myself more. Living a poor life
makes me hate everything here. I hate the stupid smiles of the people inside.
I hate the smell of the tree. I hate the market that can't provide me with the
things I like. But most of all, I hate the fact that I don't have money.
Although you said you could support me, people like me can't live in the
interior of the country with only 200 baht a day. I can't live in an
environment where I will never be happy around it. No air conditioning.
Not television. Without a water heater. Even the bed is rusty.
I love you Aoey, but now I realized that being poor was eating me alive. I
felt empty inside and wondered why I didn't run away with my family. The
answer is you... I have to live like this for you. I will be better and happier
without you. I have to leave you behind. Please understand me... I wanted
you to understand that it is natural for men and women to be together. It is
impossible for two women to be together until the end. One day you will
meet a man who wants to marry you and have children with you. I, Gen,
will have to find a husband as rich and intelligent as me. I don't think he
can fight nature anymore.nOnly in a novel could a woman love a woman
and a man could be with another man without being judged by society. If he
exists somewhere, I never thought I would see them. I don't want to prove
that our relationship will last forever. I'm not a guinea pig. If it helps make
your life easier, you can hate me. Because it seems like I started hating you
too.
Because you put me in this situation. I leave. I hope I never see you again.
Genlong,
That letter drove me crazy. I couldn't eat or sleep during that time. The
lyrics played in my head all the time in her voice as if someone had
recorded it. I remembered every letter, every line I lived with rage for 3
years. Genlong did it. I hated her with all my heart and told myself that I
had to succeed so I could show her that I could succeed. Even though I
hated her... I still wanted to see her. I wanted to know how the daring
princess lived. Was she really happy when she lived without me? I rewrote
the novel about our story and posted it online again. I called her -Best
friends-. I got the best feedback any writer could give until one of my fans
emailed me telling me about a cartoon on the Internet called MATE, with
the same story.
When I read the cartoon, my heart beat very fast. Many things told me that
the artist was Genlong. I knew she could draw really well, so I was 90
percent sure it was her. If I decided to report it to the police or press
charges, the cartoon would only be removed. But I didn't want that. I
wanted to see the artist... Tod could take care of that. I wasn't wrong. Tod
really could do it. The handsome guy was the owner of the company, my
manager, my employer, brother. He could take me to Genlong. Seeing it
again made me realize that... I still loved her. I couldn't deny that.
Hate and love were intertwined. I wanted to kill her but I also wanted to
hug her. I wanted to ask her if she missed me. I later found out that Genlong
was the one behind all my success and the real reason why she had to
leave... And the fact that she loved me so much. So lucky that I asked Tod
to bring her back despite the hate in the letter. I hated that letter.
"What's happening? You look stressed."
The daring princess who returned from looking for the package outside
looked at me in bewilderment. She wondered what she had done wrong.
She wasn't as overbearing as she was before, since she realized how bad she
did me.
"I hate you."
"What did I do?"
"I'm thinking about the letter you left me 3 years ago."
She was surprised to hear that. I laughed when I saw her reaction.
"I had to write that."
My beloved husband rushed to sit next to me and explained nervously.
"Think about it, if I wrote you a letter saying that I have to leave because I
don't want to see you work hard for me, that I loved you very much and
gave you hope to wait for me. I had to be bad, so you could move on."
"Drop that excuse."
I still picked a fight for fun even though I understood it now. I was
wondering what was going through her head when she wrote the letter.
"There must be some truth in it, or you couldn't write a letter like that."
The beautiful girl in front of me looked confused and finally escaped with
her trick.
"I faint,"
I knew her movements well enough, so I grabbed her by the neck. She
couldn't collapse into bed. I laughed and pulled her towards me to hug her.
"I'm kidding. Now you're fainting when you can't explain it. Because you
are so pretty?"
"What are you doing?"
"I was upset thinking about that. Next time just tell me frankly. Don't ever
disappear again. It won't be great like the first time. I'll be really angry."
Genlong hugged me back and laughed.
"Ok, I'll say it directly next time."
"By the way, what did you buy? Since when do you shop online?"
"No, this is my first time."
She asked me if I would arrive.Now we pay attention to the package on my
princess's lap. I quickly grabbed the box towards me.
"I'll open it for you."
"Hey, meddler!"
"I can not open it?"
"Ok, ok. You can open it."
She didn't want to argue with me.
"Okay, open it for me. I'll work a little more."
Genlong walked towards her computer on the table. She picked up a mouse
pen and started drawing. I found a cutter and opened the box. I was curious
to know what was inside. I found another small box inside wrapped in
newspapers.
"What did you buy?"
"You're opening it right now. Don't ask, just open it."
I removed the layer of wrapping newspapers to see the inside. A small dark
blue jewelry box inside excited me. I could be right. I opened the box and
saw two gem rings with the letters A and G on each ring. I looked at her
with surprise.
"You asked for rings."
"They are from Swarovski. The diamond rings won't come home if I order
them online."
The artist continued drawing in front of the computer. She said without
making any eye contact. I put the ring on my finger and found that the ring
was bigger than my finger.
"I can't use ring A."
"That's mine. You have to use the one with the G. Why would you wear a
ring in your name?"
"You are so thoughtful. Why did you buy it?"
I put the ring on and admired it.
"It must have been nice on the Internet, that's why you bought it."
"It was a pre-order ring."
"Tasteful."
"Sure, I'm Genlong."
"What is the occasion? Or did you just want to buy it?"
I admired the ring and thought it looked good on me. I should always use it.
Genlong's name was on my finger. I had not received any response from her
yet, but Genlong remained silent for a long time. I had to look away from
her ring and look at her, who was now sitting in front of her computer.
"Why are you so quiet?"
"I'm excited."
"Because?"
"Marry me?"
Silence fell between us. Genlong wasn't looking at me but she wasn't
drawing anything on the computer anymore. She was sitting still. I froze as
if I was paralyzed from head to toe.
"Why are you silent? I thought you wanted to get married."
The next thing I knew, I hugged her from behind, still in shock. My
sensitivity was through the roof. I cried and trembled.
"What's happening? You scared me."
"How could you do this? This is unexpected."
I cried and hit her shoulder gently. Genlong turned around and turned her
chair to look at me. She pulled me to sit on her lap. My daring princess's
reaction was more nervous than mine.
"I thought a marriage proposal was supposed to be unexpected. I was so
scared that you would cry so much."
Genlong grabbed her chest where her heart was.
"So this is the feeling of a proposal. I never thought I could do this. I
always imagined a man getting down on one knee asking me to marry him.
How funny life is."
Now I hugged her and cried like a baby in her lap. I hugged her like I
couldn't believe it and this could be a good dream.
"I can not believe it. you proposed to me."
"I told you before that when I have enough money I will propose to you.
Now I have something. But please, I don't want a big wedding. I don't want
to be on the news. A woman married another woman or a homosexual
couple married. I don't want to be in a strange news section."
"Whatever you want."
"If we get on the news, my parents will find out and drag me back home.
Let's do this...we'll get married nice and simple. I want a small, low-budget
wedding like Rain and Kim Tae Hee, a Korean celebrity. We can invite only
a few close friends."
I never cared what my wedding would be like. The most important thing
was that Genlong wanted to settle down with me. I couldn't say much
because I cried all the time. Genlong tried to talk and calm me down.
"What type of dress will we wear at our wedding? Are we both going to
wear a white wedding dress? We might end up in a beauty pageant."
"It doesn't matter."
"How is that? We have to think about what we are going to wear."
"I really don't care what I wear."
I kissed her softly on the neck and still said
"It doesn't matter."
"What are you doing?"
Genlong noticed now that I started to get naughty. Not only did my lips
softly kiss her all over, but my hands also playfully touched her under her
shirt.
"I'm more interested after the wedding."
"You're naughty again."
"You always make me horny, even when you talk about the wedding dress."
I gently nibbled her ear. I knew that was her weak point. Her labored
breathing was a sign that she was convinced.
"The dress is not that important to me. I'm more interested in removing it."
"You're flirting with me again."
"Does it work?"
"I don't know."
Genlong pushed me and took off my shirt. She bit my cleavage, her favorite
place.
"I think it's working.."
I smiled like a winner. Finally, Genlong carried me to the bed. She lost to
me as usual.
"You always make me forget how stressful I was with work. This is a good
break."
My sassy princess took off all her clothes before lying on top of me. I let
her drive as she liked, the kisses, her caresses. Her soft hands gently
explored my body.
"You see! The wedding dress wasn't that important. The important thing
was to remove it."
