Gold Rush

this is ew

͙⁺˚* ✫ Johnny ✫ ͙⁺˚*

April 9, 2005

I kissed Grace.
I kissed her and it was fucking everything.

I knew it would be, she was better than I'd imagined and that was saying a lot.

The second my lips met hers, I lost all hope of trying to bury my feelings. I couldn't when she was in the picture.

She was intoxicating. The feeling of her lips, the sounds she made as I deepened the kiss, the feel of her hands on my body, all of it was replaying in my mind.

Even now, as my little sister tore me a new one, I couldn't stop thinking about Gracelyn Monroe.

"Are you fucking serious? Are you both serious?" Addy shouted, her eyes moving from Grace to myself.

"Dead serious," Grace sighed, picking up my arm and draping it around her shoulders.

Works for me.

"What about Theo? You're okay with cheating?! Because I am not, Gracelyn, and I thought you were better than that," Addy was shaking her head and anxiously pacing around the sitting room.

"We broke up," Grace shrugged, "so, maybe take a chill pill and sit down."

"No! Because you still hurt the poor lad," she sighed.

"Why are you acting like you care about Theo? It's not your business, Adeline," Grace's tone surprised me.

"What the fuck is your problem?" Addy snapped, making my eyes widen.

They were clearly fighting, and I had no fucking idea why. It was definitely putting me in an awkward position.

"Hey, stop," I spoke up. "Addy, it was only a kiss, and Grace, it's her business because she loves us both."

"Only a kiss?! Your tongue was down her throat, Jonathan Robert Kavanagh Jr, what would've happened if I hadn't walked in?"

"We'd probably be upstairs having really hot sex," Grace smirked.

I knew she was trying to get under Adeline's skin, but her words affected me. I fucking loved the girls confidence. I'd never met anyone like Gracie, and every time she made a joke like that it struck me straight in the heart.

"What the fuck?! That's disgusting," Adeline screeched, her hands flying to her ears.

"You asked," she shrugged, snuggling closer to me.

"Oh my god! This is my worst nightmare," Addy groaned.

"Now you know how I feel," I chuckled.

"No I don't! I love Gerard, more than anything!" She raised her voice, "this"—she pointed at Grace and I—"this is wrong! This is ew!"

"What the hell is your problem?" Grace snapped, "you're acting like a real bitch."

"Says you! You broke up with Theo five minutes ago and you're all cuddled up with my brother," she yelled.