Finding A Home part 2

Chapter 4

Stevie's POV
It's day three. I get more paraniod by the minute. Terrified that all of the sudden she'd die. That organs would start failing. That I'd lose the famiky that I've always wished to of had by my side.

The wedding planner cane iver today and I couldn't even speak. I just cried. The minute I opened the door to see her I just cried. Think of how I can't start a famiky without her. She's my maid if honor.. I can't plan a wedding when I might have to plan a funeral. I'd be trending in my white dress for a black one. I hate myself for think like this but I always jump to the worst. Allie usually stopped that. Allie usually wiped the tears from my cheek when Ally wasn't around too.

Ally told the woman that we can't of ford to think of a wedding rn and explained the circumstances. She knew I couldn't. We spent most of the time crying and trying to console one another. When we weren't visiting little Alls of course. I'm not sure if our visits did anything. I think they were more for us than for her..
I wish she'd wake up already. I wish Steph woukd call us and tell us she was awake.

Steph is there more than us. Sometimes I think she stays the night. In a way I'm hoping she does. So Allie doesn't have to be alone ever..

My thoughts are completely running rampid. Never stopping constantly ticking it's like the hand on the clock counting the seconds. I feel parlayed by the voices in my head that fill me with nothing but dread. Making me think that she's as good as dead. I can't sleep I can't eat. I can't do a thing but sit on her bed wishing this is where she was laying.

Ally hardly speaks. She mostly lays on the couch with a blank face. She doesn't cry. Well not really. I think she might be numb. Allie was the little Ally. She was her mini me. Ally never opened up to anyone until her. Except me and Danny. But Allie made her into an open book. Allie made her open to everyone. Ally was so in touch with her emotions. She became more campasionaye than she had ever been because of Allie. (didn't think that was possible) Now that Allie isn't exactly here. Ally seems a bit emotionless. It scares me. It makes me feel like I might have lost them both all at once. She only talks when she sees me cry. She tries to make me feel better but I just want to help her.

I've already seen Alls today. She doesn't look so good. I could tell Ally was scared. Which made me feel even worse. Steph sat there. Still holding her hand. It's like she hadn't moved from that spot.

Stephs POV

I've been woth Allie everyday. I left once to go get clothes so I could stay the night here and shower in the hospital rooms bathroom. I want to be here when she wakes up. I was the person with her when she passed out. I'm gonna be here when she gets up from it. She's my bestfriend. I thought we could be more than that but I never opened up. Now it might be too late.

I kiss her on the forhead at 11:11 each night. It's my wish for her to wake up. The kiss is for goodluck. It's sad I've never kissed her while she was awake. Now it feels like it hasn't done a thing. Maybe it hasn't.

I tall to her all day as if she were awake talking back. Sometimes it'll make her brain activity spike. But it usually last for a moment. I keep thinking if I say something shocking enough she'll wake up.

"Alls. I don't know if you can hear me. But you have to keep fighting in there. You have to keep it up. People need you out here. I need you out here. Ally, Stevie need you out here. Shannon and Cammie won't have their 'God child' that they claim you as. Rose and Rosie won't be able to visit their favorite underage American. I..I wont be able to tell you how much I really want to be with you. You have to wake up. The longer you're asleep the worse it gets. Please please,wake up." I tell her feeling desprate while I watch the brain activity get slower on the screen. It keeps dropping.
'Maybe I should call Ally and Stevie?'
I thought to myself right after I had talked to Allie.

End of POV.

Steph hardly ever let go of my hand. She'd always talk to me. About everything and anything. It make me fight to wake up. To move. To do something. But I'd always stop. Cause with each thought the more pain ran through me. Even when Ally came to sing to me. Even when Stevie sung which had me fighting as much as I could. Cause I want to tell her she can sing and not to ducking lie to her subcribers. I want to give them a hard time. But it still lasted shortly. I don't know how long it's been. It's felt like one long day.

I feel weak. Which is t saying much because I can't move. But just thinking. I can't think alot at all rn. I'm trying not to think at all. I'm tired of fighting. After all. Dad can't get me when I've already gotten myself. He'd have no reason to hurt them anymore. I'd actually be dead so people could move on properly. I think I should give up.

Steph is asking me not to. But she doesn't understand. She doesn't know what it's like in the darkness of your own mind. It's time I let go.

Stevie's POV.

I'm going out to the store to get more coffee. It's been the only thing keeping me from complete exhaustion lately. I browse the Iles trying to find the specific type that Ally and I both will drink. All the sudden I feel my face against the tile of the cold floor.

"Where's she at you bitch whore?"

I knew it was her father. The voice of the devil himself.

"You're never gonna see her again you sick bastard. I'd like to see you try to touch her now. Ha" I laughed at him because I knew he'd never see her again. I wouldn't let him.

He grabbed my hair and kept banging it against the tile. I kept trying to fight back but he had all of his weight on me. I felt the blood gushing through my head.

"Get off her you son of a bitch." I heard the voice and smiled ear to ear. It was Danny. Danny had knocked him on to his back. He lifted me up asking me if I was okay.

"I'm dizzy." I said almost falling back to the ground. I couldn't think straight. Or stand straight. Or do much of anything.

"You're losing a lot of blood. I have to get you to the hospital." Danny said worried for my life.

"She's not going anywhere" her father said coming back at me.

"GOD DAMMIT." He said holding on to his eyes.

It was Moonshine. She had pepper spray on her Keychain and saved the day. She truly is an amazing friend.

"I got this dick Danny." She says as she sprays him a second time making sure he'd be there longer. "Let's go get Stevie to the hospital."

Danny agreed. He put me in my car and Moonshine followed behind in hers.