Finding A Home part 2

Chapter 17

At this point I didn't know what to say. I was always running. To bars. To hills. Just running. Usually I'd go back home cause I had to. Legally I had to come back home. Now,not so much. Yes Ally and Stevie have full control over me as of now. But they don't use it. It's not scary. If i didn't go back home before hand,and they found me,my dad would beat me. Sadly a lot of my life revolves around him and my not so percent mother. Now. I'm more free.

Cammie knew it. Cammie and Shannon. They know everything. I tell them just as much as I do Stevie and Ally. They feel more like parents anyways. That's how they acted. They always called to see if I was doing my online classes and unless it's a special occasion,no drinking at their house. They'd even buy me clothes and gifts at random. Stevie and Ally do take care of me,but it's truly like living in apartment with sisters. Camden Scott,Shannon,well. They're the closest thing to parents I've ever had.

I didn't know how to answer. Or speak After all, I didn't know where I was running to. I just knew I needed to go. I think I've forgiven Stevie. But to face her after this,or Ally. I'm not sure I can do that. Or what else I may cause. Cause it seems everytime something good happens something knocks us down. They weren't like this before. Nobody was like this before. I was speechless.

"Well,alright. Go. Run. Here's 200$. There's a fifty in the jewelry box in your room. If you're gonna run then you need something to get you somewhere." Cammie said like she couldn't wait for me to leave.

I just looked up at them. Confused.

"What the hell Camden! No you're not running anywhere! You're staying here with us or you're going back to Stevie's! If you don't sit down in the living room I'll call Stevie and the cops saying I have a run away child. You can't just leave. I have no idea in what's going on or why you're wanting to leave so bad. But this isn't gonna fix it. You literally just got out of a coma.. you're weak. You need a couple of days to get strength back. Besides,running isn't the answer. Cammie, what are thinking?"

"I'm thinking that she was miles away from anyone she knew. That when people who loved her and tried taking care of her came. She tried fleeing. She doesn't want real help. She can't take it. You can't help someone who doesn't want it but you can at least make sure they have something. She can't let anyone in. Not really. Yeah she's an open book. But when it comes to love,and genuine emotion. You know nothing. We've all faught for her Shan! Everyone! All she ever wants to do is fight against us! I'm not holding her against her will! I'm not!"

At first she spoke calmly,but rage soon consumed her. Red paint filled her face and rivers flowed outside those little eyes. Lions roared in her lungs. I believe she could rip out my throat if I would've pushed it.

" I didn't ask for anyone to take care of me.." I screamed up to them both. I was doing some crying of my own.

"Excuse me?" The Lions roar in Cammie's lungs got louder.

" Of course you didn't ask! Allie you've never been taken care of! You're not use to it.. you can take care of yourself. We all can see that. Sometimes people need help. That's okay to need help. Yeah sometimes things happen,like Steph just trying to get you to the store and you ended up taking you to the hospital. Yeah shut happened,but she was willing. She wanted to cause you're worth something and you never see that! You never see that...I just want you to see that."

Those lions had hushed. The redness of her skin faded away,but the river was flowing faster.

Shannon pulled her into her chest realizing this was her hurt. Hurt because I had still not stopped distancing myself. Because I am hurting the people around me. Just not the way I had thought.

I rose up to face her. Shannon had released her from her grip and I tried to pull her into mine.

"No,go. If you're gonna go. Leave us all now. I wont tell them we seen you. But I'm tired. I'm tired if trying and it never working."

"Cam. I'm sorry. I really am. I'm not gonna run. I'm not. I'm sorry. I'll let you guys help. I'm just so confused. I'm in so much pain right now I didn't want to give it to you. I felt like a burden no matter what. I get it. I understand this now. It be like taking care of you while you're sick. It's something I'd want to do. No matter how hard. Guys I'm just now learning what family is and,I chose the biggest one ever. It's hard adjusting. But I will. I'll stay here for you guys,for myself. I'll stay."

She then embraced the hug and the lion became a lamb. Shannon pulled us both in and we wrapped ourselves around one another. Sharing a moment that has effected my very core. Shaping another part of me,as people do.

"So,can you tell us something? Why were you running from the girls?"