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Trauma ~ Sunghoon🥀🌸

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"Our secret is that we don't have secrets!" Sunoo stated on BuzzFeed Celeb, unsure what to say. Sunghoon thought about that statement a lot, "I feel bad being the reason that's not true..." Sunghoon thought to himself, memorizing the patterns of the ceiling from his bed. He thought back some to his childhood, grimacing at the thought. His parents were far from good, bad for getting into terrible fights, breaking glassware out of rage, and sometimes taking their own problems out on their child, Sunghoon. His parents are the reason that his refusal to drink with members hasn't had any explanation. 

Sunghoon snapped out of his thoughts, not wanting to relive the memories. He sat up, sighing, not sure what to do. "My room is too clean to really try and tidy up anything..." Sunghoon thought, mentally laughing at himself with his clean freak problems. After too much thought, he eventually settled to move to the living room where the rest of the members slowly began piling from boredom. Jungwon's head turned to the older, acknowledging his presence, "Hey, hyung! You bored too?" he asked, smiling brightly at the older. Sunghoon chuckled and nodded before taking a spot on the floor near the rest of the members, his eyes drifting to the TV playing whatever KDrama they found. 

Time flew out from their hands as the night grew later, eventually leading to them eating dinner together. Sunghoon silently ate as he listened to the member's conversations, slightly uncomfortable. The conversation between Heeseung and Jay soon turned into an argument, Sunghoon slowly began to hug his legs hoping to ignore the situation. Sunghoon wasn't even entirely sure what the argument was about, all he could think was for it to stop. Looking up to Heeseung and Jay, he quietly interjected, "Guys, is the yelling really n-necessary?" he asked his voice shaking. He made eye contact with them as they looked over, "Stay out of this, Sunghoon!" they yelled, Heeseung's hand accidentally hitting the table on its way down. Sunghoon hit his limit.

He felt his heart sink as his entire body tensed. His eyes widened as he began sliding back, away from the two. His body shook as tears began to slowly drip from his eyes, his back soon hitting the wall followed by curling into a ball. The fighting immediately stopped as all members began getting concerned. Sunoo slowly approached the figure skater, trying to understand the situation. "Sunghoon hyung?-" Sunghoon's words cut him off through broken sobs, "I'm sorry! Don't hurt me!" he cried, his eyes shot with terror. Unsure what to do, Sunoo and the rest of Enhypen tried to calm him without overcrowding him. "Sunghoon, no one's here to hurt you. There's nothing to be sorry for, it's just us, your members," Jake said, kneeling beside him. Sunghoon's gaze spastically went from the ground to Jake, his breathing erratic. 

The tears continued to flow as his quiet voice could only get as loud as a mumble, repeating the same words, "I'm sorry..." Jake felt his heartache, accompanied by slight panic, being unsure how to handle the situation. After who knows how long, Sunghoon's breath lessened in pace, and began to let the members physically interact with him. He still wouldn't speak, but it was better than they started. "Sunghoon, can I sit you up?" Jake asked, making eye contact with the still-shaking older, a simple nod was all he got in response. Jake smiled at him as he gently grabbed his shoulders and sat him upright, all the members able to see him. Sunghoon's body began to ease as he saw the calm faces of his brothers staring at him. His shaking continued while his tears began to slow. "Are you ok, Sunghoon?" Jay asked, his voice drowning with care and worry.

Sunghoon felt a sense of defeat and embarrassment, now that the members had seen him through an entire panic attack. He kept his gaze down, avoiding the member's faces. "Hyung?" a concerned voice asked, Ni-ki moving forward to see Sunghoon. Sunghoon let out a shakey sigh, feeling terrible, "Uh, sorry about that?" he said, his puffy eyes beginning to ache. Heeseung began to interject with multiple apologies and concern. Sunghoon eventually explained the reason behind the panic attack, making all the members concerned. They then vowed that it to never happen again.

Tada, I did it-. Midway through writing this I got the biggest icky feeling so I am praying I didn't get the stomach bug from my father right now or I will tweak out. I'm sorry this is short-, I had a lot more inspiration and good stuff for this at the beginning but as you can see I sorta died-. Have a wonderful day/night!

~Author

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