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Miscommunication ~ Jake🥀🌸

Jake sat on the floor of his empty room, the occurrence replaying in his mind on loop. "Jake, just tell me what you mean! Just fucking explain in!" Heeseung loudly stated to the younger. "I don't know how to, hyung! I don't even want to try and talk about it anymore!" Jake said as he felt his breath hitch. "You were the one who brought this up to try and communicate! Why are you trying to back out of this now?!" Heeseung's voice began getting louder as Jake's guilt worsened. "I tried to explain, and you didn't understand, and now I don't know what to do to help make it make sense!" No more words were left after. Heeseung went his separate way, and Jake sat on the floor of his room, his mind scrambled. 

He felt the waves of guilt drowning him each time the scenario replayed. He felt his hands begin to shake as he thought, "How do I even communicate anything? Why am I so bad at just explaining to someone how I feel and getting it off my chest without backing away from my statement?" he mumbled as he fidgeted with his fingers. "It's like everything I say is jumbled nonsense to everyone else." He felt himself slipping into a worse mood, his sadness manifesting into anger.

"How is it every time I do anything I fuck it up?! The second I try to be a normal person and tell someone that something they do makes me upset, I just shut down! I can't even make sense of what I'm trying to say in the first place! How am I so damn bad at communicating?! This is why I'm the weakest link in this group. I can never add anything to our ideas for comebacks or any work we do because I don't know how to tell them. Why am I always behind everyone else in everything?" his long list of questioning to himself was interrupted by a crack of the door. The familiar face of a younger member appeared, "Are you ok, Hyung?"

"I'm fine, Jungwon, just having a moment," Jake said, as the younger walked in and sat in front of the older, his anger beginning to calm. "You sure? You look like you've been crying," Jungwon said as he stared at Jake's wet cheeks. Jake brought a hand to his cheek and felt the tear stains, unaware he had been crying. "I'm just having a hard time. I'm scared that if I try to make sense of any of it, I'll make it all worse." "Hyung, I promise I'll listen and be patient. Tell me what happened."

"I was trying to talk to Heeseung Hyung about some of the jokes he makes when he picks on us, and how some of them hurt me a lot, and it just went downhill. He started getting defensive and asking questions that I couldn't figure out how to answer. I just froze up on the spot and started to just try to agree or disagree and get myself out of the conversation. It felt like I was talking to one of my parents all over again. There used to be these dumb moments we'd have where I would state my opinion for the first time ever, and if they didn't like it, they'd start lecturing me and wouldn't let me put any input. It was just back and forth with 'yes sirs' til he'd let me leave. They used to make me feel so guilty about it. Every time that happens, I just freeze up and try to get out of the conversation as fast as possible, and I don't know how to fix it." Jake's bottled emotions and past experiences began spilling out as tears came with them. Jungwon's eyes grew as more words came from the elder. 

Jungwon's eyes grew as more words came from the elder. It was a rare occurrence for Jake to begin opening up about his emotions. "Hyung, I'm sorry if I'm a little out of it right now, but you know you're normally a very tough cookie to crack about how you're doing, so this is a lot of new stuff," Jungwon said with a chuckle as Jake joined him.  "Yeah, I just trust you a lot, and I've never really let all this out, so it was going to come out eventually. I'm just happy it was you that had to hear it all and not some stranger." "Hyung, I know what you mean, but I think you can credit a lot of that problem to what sounds like your parents. They stunted your ability to communicate by never giving you a chance to learn how with the people you're supposed to trust the most-" "I know but I feel bad ever trying to blame anything on them because they weren't bad people and there's so many people with a worse childhood so I shouldn't acknowledge any kind of wrong doing they've done." Jake cut off Jungwon. "Hyung, just because someone wasn't a bad person, doesn't mean they can't do bad things or mess up. I know you feel guilty for understanding that they made a mistake, but it's the truth." Jungwon looked into the eyes of the elder. The blonde extended his arms out for a hug for the older, which was accepted happily. 

"I need to go apologize to Heeseung Hyung, can you please come with me? I feel like I need help," Jake quietly asked as the two stood up. Jungwon gave a nod and left the room with Jake to clear up the miscommunication. 

Hey guys-. So I kind of died because I just have a lovely definitely very consistent writing motivation. This is me just venting my own feelings that happened to me literally like 2 minutes before I started writing this. Enjoy this even though it's not all that great. I'm sorry if this is poorly proofread. Have a wonderful day/night!

~Author

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