I'm sorry

Breakups

So I dated a guy named Zach. He asked me out 6-12-15. He broke up with me 7-9-15. He dated another girl who is my friend 7-14-15. What makes me mad the most is that he helped me. He helped me cope with self harm and for a moment I forgot about the depression and bulimia and bullying. Now he's been dating a girl for like two weeks and he didn't bother to tell me until a few days ago. When he broke up with me he didn't tell me anything except there wasn't another girl involved. I believed him and tried to move on. It's hard for me to believe there wasn't someone else when he went out with her not even a week later. Why does this always happen to me? To make things better I liked this girl named Corina. She made me smile and blush and it was just all around amazing being with her. Two days ago she sends me a snapchat of her and her boyfriend kissing and it hurt me. She told me before how we would date as soon as I was 14. I asked her about it and she said she felt like she wasn't pansexual more like confused and went on to tell me about her being straight and how she's sorry for hurting me. First I lose my ex boyfriend to suicide over a year ago. Then I lose my best friend to suicide. Now I've lost two people I've cared about the most I've ever cared for someone. It's not fair that everyday Zach and Corina snapchat and text me about their relationships when they know they led me on. Why is it that every bad thing seems to happen to me? I flushed my blades and now I need them more now and i don't have any. I'm scared of what I'll do. I'm sorry to whoever I've hurt. I didn't mean to. I guess I'll be going now. I love you all. Stay strong. Life's a bitch don't quit. Stay happy not crappy. ❤️