I'm sorry

#cut4zayn

So ever since the incident with 1D there has been numerous hashtags on social media that all correspond with self harm and all. I've seen #cutting4zayn, #cut4zayn, etc. guys stop rn. First off I hate to see pictures of it bc it just brings back horrible memories and it's extremely triggering. It makes me wanna cut as well as others. There has been over 107 suicides because Zayn left. This happened within hours of them breaking up. I hate it. I hate seeing tweets of self harm saying that if zayn doesn't go back then they're gonna kill themselves. Do you know how attention seeking that sounded? I can't believe them. MCR breaks up. Fans cry. 1D breaks up. Fans kill them selves and cut. And they call us "emo". This is a rant bc it ticks me off. People say that they saved them. They didn't save you. You saved yourself by staying strong. They helped you stay strong. They didn't save you. You saved yourself. Guys think before you act. I'm trying to get better honestly. The other day I was sent something by my crush. It freaking broke my heart. Do you see me killing myself over it? No, wanna know why? I'm not dependent on him more so than air.

He sent this:

Hey u ugly piece of shit. I know it's erly and your Probly being fucked. but I can't stand you more then anything. And I know I treated you terrible with the beatings and everything. But I'm not sorry baby I'll never come back. I hate you so much. Your nothing and If I ever lossed you baby I would literally die of joy and happiness. You mean nothing to mee. And my baby girl is shitty af and Id give you up for anythingg. And your the worst thing that's ever happened to me sweetheart. Anyways Badmorning honey. I hate you so muchhh. Suck a cock

I'm not depressed over it. It brought me down but I'm good. I'm fine.