I'm sorry

Early College

I have had no energy to do anything for the past two months but sit here and watch life pass me by. It's so frustrating to be sitting here crushing on someone who won't give you the time of day. I'll probably lose friends but idc I'm pansexual. I said it. Basically meaning I'm attracted to someone on the inside not the out like bisexual is more physical. I'm attracted to anyone girl or guy. I really like this girl at school who'll I'll call her Anna. I've liked her for awhile and she has a boyfriend and it's frustrating because I like her and she won't give me the time of day for that. We're friends and close and she won't acknowledge me and I'm scared to act on it. I just want this year to be over. My parents both of them now know too. So now they know everything from self harm to depression to bulimia to suicidal all the way to Sam. I'm probably not going to be uploading anymore because I can't even do anything right. I'm losing friends left and right and being bullied. A lot. I just wish that for once I can get the girl of my dreams and have something go right. The closest thing I've had to happiness is meeting pierce the veil and getting hugged by Vic. Id I don't update chances are I'm dead. Big sis, you know who you are, I'll miss you and you'll find a better Merch girl. I love you all. Don't hate anyone. No matter what they've done. Love everyone because you never know what they go through. Stay happy. Life's to short to even care at all......