It can't freaking come fast enough for me right now. I want nothing more than death itself but my mind just wants to stay here. It's like everything in my body is telling me to kill myself. Yet everything in my body is telling me not to. I plan to kill myself with sleeping pills. I will make my letter when I'm alone so no one can disturb me. There's nothing that anyone can say or do that will stop me. It's my damn decision. I am tired of this. I hear people saying I'm pretty and skinny and other shit. I'm not. I'm far from it. I'm ugly, fat and covered in scars. My sister knows everything except for New Years Day and me self harming. She thinks I'm fine. Like everyone else they believe the lies. I've lied for so long. I'm gonna let go. This will probably be the last any of you hear from me bc I'm not gonna respond anymore. I think I'm gonna speed things up to the day after Christmas. I'm not worth saving. Find someone else who is and save them. They are a lot more important than I am.
-hollycea01
~Holland Elizabeth Hodges
Born: August 8,2001
Died: ?
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I'm sorry
Short StoryThis is my apology to those who have seen or heard of my suicidal rant or conversation between My-Chemical-Ash and I but I do plan on ending it soon. I just don't know when exactly. If Michael, Calum, Ashton or Luke read this it isn't your fault. Yo...
