Our Little Bit of Light

Sleeping Arrangements

Now that they had finished the interrogation like conversation, everyone spread themselves out on the couches and on the ground near the couches obviously not caring whether or not Murphy wanted them to stay in his house. As they laid down in his living room, it dawned on Murphy that Bellamy now had nowhere to sleep and there was only one place left: His bed. The idea of sharing a bed with Bellamy sent an excited shiver through him, but at the same time terrified him. Did Bellamy want to pick off where they had stopped? Murphy had never shared his interest in boys to anyone but himself, little own had sex. And the idea of having his first time with Bellamy excited him but also set anxiety upon him, nervous butterflies shimmering throughout his stomach, making it do flips. He looked over at Bellamy who was looking at him obviously thinking the same thing as Murphy about the sleeping arrangements.

"You can sleep in my bed" He said attempting to relieve the tension that was boiling up between them but the statement only added to it, as they were both were wondering what the other wanted, scared to push too hard, terrified of not pushing hard enough. Murphy mustered all of his courage, which to be honest wasn't all that much and walked into the bedroom and then called back

"Are you coming?" to Bellamy who followed after a few baited breathes.

He stood awkwardly there for a moment, Murphy had never been in this situation before, he'd never slept next to a boy, hell he'd never even had a guy like him back the way he liked them and this left him feeling vulnerable, murphy usually hated the feeling but somehow he knew Bellamy would know what to do

"What do we do now? I've never been in this situation before." Bellamy admits, standing across the room from Murphy.

Or Bellamy has absolutely no clue how to approach this either he thinks bitterly. Murphy took long strides to the side of the bed false confidence in place as he pulled back the covers of his side. Bellamy did the same but instead of just getting into the bed started removing his clothes. Murphy held his breathe for a moment as Bellamy had removed his shirt and was starting on his pants, the older boy stepped out of his jeans and pushed his clothes in to a corner beside the bed, but remained in his underwear, this left Murphy both disappointed and relieved at the same time. He looked up to find Murphy staring again, lust and terror embedded on his expression. Bellamy was feeling the exact same way but he was better at hiding his feelings than Murphy so his expression remained neutral, until he realized that he would have to take Murphy's clothes off, at that point he couldn't hold it in anymore and broke out into a smirk, seaming to lighten the mood.

"Why are you smirking?" Murphy asked curious of Bellamy sudden flip of emotions

"Do you need help taking your clothes off?" Bellamy laughed at the embarrassed expression on murphy's face, Murphy scowled at him in response. Bellamy cut off his laughter of seeing he was getting angry but kept the smile as he crossed the bed to sit in front of Murphy. Bellamy raised his hands painfully slow to Murphy, resting his hands just under Murphy's shirt he looked up into his eyes slowly caressing the rough skin there lovingly, sexily, it took all of Murphy's effort to remember what Bellamy had said

"Yes" Murphy whispered straining to think straight, actually Murphy wasn't straining to think straight that was the last thing he was thinking, Murphy was struggling to think clearly, as Bellamy's hands explored his torso again. It was so hard to make a coherent sentence in his head, little own think clearly especially when Bellamy lowered his mouth to the scared flesh just above his waistband, kissing and caressing with his tongue

"Yes" Bellamy mocked knowing he could make Murphy say anything when he was like this "What's the magic word Murphy?"

"What?" Murphy asked confused, he was trying for his words to sound strong but he moaned a bit at the end when Bellamy dipped his tongue just beneath the waist band of Murphy's pants

"What's the magic word?" Bellamy asked again playfully, Murphy thought about this for a moment then realized what Bellamy was trying to make him do and took great pleasure in doing the opposite

"Now, Bellamy" Murphy said sternly, Bellamy may think he is in control, because he is older and more experienced in well everything but, Murphy was sharp and that had to count for something right?

Bellamy chuckled at Murphy's lack of begging, but kind of admired him for that, he knew if it had been Murphy licking and kissing Bellamy there, He would have said absolutely anything to please him. Bellamy quickly removed Murphy's shirt, throwing it down next to the bed, then started on his pants, delicately sliding the fabric down his long legs, he sat impossibly close remaining eye contact with murphy as the younger teen stepped out of the bottom of his pants. Bellamy slid his hands up the outside of murphy's thighs, in soothing patterns just admiring the way Murphy shivered under his touch, before getting up and walk to his side of the bed and laying down under the covers, Murphy followed suit on his side and let out a breath in an attempt to calm his nerves about laying almost completely naked in bed with another boy, who he was attracted to and who was attracted to him. He laid there for a few moments just listening to the other breath, until his soft voice broke the silence

"What now?" Murphy questioned feeling miles away from Bellamy yet so close at the same time.

"Come here." Bellamy offered, holding his arms out revealing a muscled chest.

"Cuddling Blake, Really?" murphy growled although the idea of being pressed against Bellamy did sound kind of appetizing.

"Shut up and come here." Bellamy whispered scowling even though he was a breath away from laughing.

"Make me" Murphy dared childishly, kind of hoping he would

"Okay" Bellamy said lunging at Murphy, devouring him in his arms and holding him. Like this Bellamy had the upper hand and placed his own body atop of murphy's heat radiated of the two boys as their chest pressed firmly together, he did it carefully so he didn't her the younger boy's arm, but it was still a firm weight on Murphy. Murphy laughed a genuine laugh that could only be described as less than girly as Bellamy started to tickle him, attempting to get him to submit.

"Okay, okay" Murphy wheezed out after a few moments and Bellamy stopped tickling the slightly smaller teen and sat straddled upon his waist, looking down at him smiling

"What?" Murphy asked unable to contain his confused smile as he looked up into deep brown eyes

"You're so gorgeous" the stray thought slipped passed Bellamy's lips before he could help himself

"Fuck Bellamy, don't get all soft on me" Murphy joked a wicked smile on his face, Bellamy just raised an eyebrow at him and ground himself against Murphy

"Never mind" Murphy laughed feeling Bellamy growing against him. Bellamy smiled at his victory and slid of Murphy, Murphy literally groaned. Bellamy felt the same way, but if they kept moving the way they were letting their bodies guide them he didn't know how far it would go and he didn't want it to go as far as sex when the other arc survivors could easily overhear them, he didn't want Murphy to lose his virginity that way, so instead he held his arms out again and this time Murphy curled into them, resting his head against Bellamy's bare chest, Murphy's hard hand fisting into the sheets on the other side of Bellamy capturing him in an embrace, that seemed both to make them more terrified and brave at the same time as they realized that they needed each other now, more than ever. Warmth poured between them and as time froze and in this moment the only sounds were the soft inhale of breath from each boy and deep radiating heartbeats, filing the room with solid thuds, vibrating the night and filling them with certainty that as long as they were in each other's arms, they would be safe, for the first time in their lives they were truly safe.