Forbidden Love

Chapter 25: Denial

Karylle's POV

"Be mine. Be my girlfriend Karylle" she said. I didn't know how to react. Oo. Yes. Kanina lang, nagagawa kong makipagbiruan sa kanya tungkol sa nararamdaman niya sa'kin but hearing those words from her? I really don't know who to react.

"Psh. Who am I kidding? Bakit ka nga naman papayag na maging girlfriend ko? Ang taas lang ng pangarap ko." she said while looking up, holding back her tears.

I didn't say a word I just pulled her for a hug. I missed her so much. She hugged back and began crying on my chest.

"Tama na please? Tama na..'di ko na kaya" she said while crying. "Ayoko na ng ganito. Tama na.."

I hugged her even tighter. Somehow, I can feel the pain.

"Sorry" I said. She pulled away from the hug and touched my face.

"I love you. I love you Karylle, I really do."

I took a deep sigh and held her hand.

"Anne about that..." I said. She looked away. Maybe because she knows where am I taking this. "Anne listen." I said again and touched her face making her look at me. "Try to balance things.. 'di kaya, nalilito ka lang sa nararamdaman mo? Because, we're too sweet with each other, we're too close.. nakatira pa tayo sa iisang bahay.. kaya baka nalilito ka lang, baka kasi-"

She shook her head and hugged me again.

"I love you and I mean it."

"Anne-"

"Kaya mo ba ako iniiwasan?" she asked and looked at me again. "Do you know what exactly I realized when you started to ignore me? I realized, 'di ko pala kaya na 'di tayo nagpapansinan. I realized, I'm deeply in love with you that I can't pull my self up anymore. I'm really drowning and you weren't there to save me. Ilang linggo K, halos magiisang buwan na tayong nakatira sa iisang bubong na para tayong 'di magkakilala. Mas nakakausap mo pa nga sina Aling Puring at Aling Nena kaysa sa'kin eh. Mas nakakasama mo pa si Manong driver kasi palagi ka niya hinahatid sundo. Paano mo nagagawa 'yun? Paano mo ako natitiis nang ganun katagal?" she said. Her tears began to fall again from her eyes.

"Anne" I said touching her face and wiping her tears away. "Si Georgina? Don't you find her attractive? Don't you like her? Ayaw mo ba siya maging-"

"Georgina?"

"'Di ba siya 'yung palagi mong kasama.. hindi ka ba-"

"Paano mo nalaman?"

"'Di na importante 'yun.. pero as I was saying.. siya? Ayaw mo ba sa kanya?"

She shook her head and hugged me once again.

"Ikaw. Ikaw ang gusto ko. Ikaw lang."

"Anne, 'wag na ako please? Masasaktan ka lang."

She touched my face and forced a smile. She looked at me in the eyes. I looked away.

"Okay lang. Okay lang sa akin na masaktan. Basta 'wag mo lang akong iwasan please? 'Wag mo akong iwasan kasi 'yun, 'di ko kaya."

I forced a smile and wiped her tears again. I planted a kiss on her forehead and pulled her again for a hug.

"I understand. I'm sorry.."

"I love you"

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"Good morning ate K!" bati ni Anne nang makababa si Karylle.

"Good morning."

"Tara kain na tayo. I helped in cooking breakfast eh. Basta 'yung dinner mamaya ikaw magluto ha? Namimiss ko na luto mo eh"