Love, Betray & Crash (Jeonghan)

Hello Everyone

Hello Everyone! 

It's been a while since I've posted something on my profile or posted an update for that matter. I have been having many thoughts lately and it has took some time for me to formulate them and come here. 

I first started writing on Wattpad in 2019, when I had just turned 17. In 2020, during the peak of Covid's lockdown, I got really into Seventeen. I had always followed their music but wasn't a fan of them necessarily before, and then I started posting stories about Seventeen. Writing and publishing my amateur stories on Wattpad brought me great joy and everytime I would read your comments, it really felt rewarding. Growing a platform on here has been one of the best things I've done. Writing has always been a hobby of mine which I have been very passionate about, and so writing on Wattpad has been somewhat fulfilling.

 I am now 22, graduated University, working a corporate job. My life is very different than what is used to be six years ago. My priorities, my focus, my stress relievers, everything has changed. I have become way more emotional mature as well. Two years ago, I had some struggles with my mental health and although I am now much better, an outcome of those events has been loosing my passion for writing Fanfiction. This past year, I was pretty much forcing myself to write chapters.

 Don't get me wrong, I still very much love Seventeen, I even went to their concert last year, however I just cannot find the motivation, the creativity or the passion to continue writing fanfiction. Every week I open wattpad to finish a chapter and every week I barely write five words. I know I am disappointing many of you by leaving my Jeonghan book unfinished, but I also do not think it is fair to leave you guys hanging in the dark, hoping for an update.

Frankly, I myself cannot 100% confirm the fate of my book. I do know for sure, I won't be updating or writing Jeonghan's book anytime soon. Probably never. However, I will still be leaving the incomplete book on my profile, for maybe one day I might find the motivation and courage to finish the book. Who knows?

 I do know that I don't want to give up writing. I don't think I can ever do that. I do want to try writing an original story of my own, and though it won't really be coming soon, I do hope you guys stick around to read an original idea of my own one day. This platform, this community, has been so special and precious to me and I would really appreciate your support in my future endeavors. I have been working on an original story for many years, however I never really had the courage to post it publicly. So fingers crossed, hopefully you all with enjoy it. 

Earlier this year, I started a YouTube channel, something that I have been wanting to do for a while. When I was very active on Wattpad, I always never wanted to reveal my identity and honestly, writing this is kind of scary for me, however if you do want to continue to follow and support me, you guys can check out my channel, called Chai With Maanya. I would actually really appreciate that. 

Thank you so much for all the love and support you all have showered me these past years. This is not the end of my account. I do know I will be back with an original story of my own. However, it definitely is the end of an era as I do not see myself writing fanfiction. 

Thank you for everything.