DESTINED LOVE

Chapter 59

Tae sat on the bed, the note lying beside him and the diary resting in his hands. With a trembling heart, he flipped through the pages, landing on one from the time they first began to drift apart.

Dear Diary,

You know, these days everything is going okay. I had a little accident, but it's fine because hyung is taking such good care of me. He never lets me do anything, not even the smallest task.

He even stopped going to the office just to stay by my side. Jin hyung and Yoongi hyung are staying with me too, since they’re worried.

Appa is going to the office instead of hyungie, and everything feels peaceful...even in this situation.

– Yours, Kookie

Tae read it and turned the page, where there is another page

Dear Diary,

Today hyungie lied to me.
You know, before the accident, he lied to me about Ami. He said he was taking her to Busan—but that was a lie.

And I don’t know what’s happening to me. It just hurts so much now.
Why did he have to lie? He said he was going to the office, but he didn’t.
He said he had an important meeting—but he never went there.
Why, hyungie?
Why are you doing this to us?

I hate you for making me feel this vulnerable. I hate that you make me cry.

– Yours, Kookie

Tae sat stunned after reading it.
Kookie knew. He knew about the lies… and yet, he said nothing.
He just cried to himself.
Tae's chest tightened painfully as he turned to the next page.

Dear Diary,

So guess what, buddy?
Tomorrow is my birthday—and I want to spend it with hyung. My first birthday with hyungie, and I want it to be special.

I want him to be the first one to wish me, so I already called Jin and Yoongi hyung and asked them not to wish me until after I spend time with Tae.
They sulked a little, but I know they’re happy for me.

I’m going out for dinner with hyung tomorrow.Wow, I’m so excited.

Bye-bye, buddy.

– Yours, Kookie

Tae’s fingers trembled as he turned to the next page, already drenched in the ache of the last words.
But still, he kept reading, even though his heart was already tearing apart.

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Dear Diary,

Today was… my birthday.
And hyungie forgot.

I kept telling myself maybe he’s planning something.Maybe he’s going to surprise me.I waited the whole day with a smile on my face and hope in my chest.But it was 12:03 when he gave me the phone back and stepped out of the car and in that moment… I knew.
He forgot.

I told myself it was okay.
He must be busy.
He must be tired.
But, dear diary… it hurt.
It really hurt.

He didn’t even look at me when I called him.I said “hyungie” and his hands were still shaking.His eyes were filled with tears, but I don’t even know if those were for me. But I believe he is crying for me.

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Dear Diary,

The next day, nothing changed.
He didn’t say anything.
I didn’t say anything.
We just… existed.
In the same house, on the same bed, under the same roof—yet felt like strangers.