Tragic Magic

Chapter Sixteen

It was 5:30 p.m. when we finally finished our shoot. I was in tears by the time I got home. Was that even real to him or was it just an act? They invited me to dinner as well, but I felt like it would turn out like lunch did, so I passed.

I tried sneaking into the house before Craig could notice me, but it was a complete fail.

"Babe, are you crying?" He catches me halfway up the stairs.

"No, I have something in my eye," I say, trying not to laugh.

"That's so cliche," he laughs.

I continue up the stairs, "You're so mean to me," I say sarcastically.

"But seriously, Juliet, are you okay?"

I turn around and look at him, "No, I'm really not."

"Alright, come on."

He drags me to the upstairs living room area and we just sit there in silence. This couch is pretty comfortable, but I still choose to lay on Craig. The sound of his heartbeat is soothing, but also scary at the same time. Reality is such a difficult thing to deal with sometimes.

"So, what's the deal?" he asks, wiping away the mascara running down my cheeks.

"I just had a really hard day. I went to lunch with the guys and I got into an argument with Ronnie when they found out I was dating you," I say.

"Jealousy is a shitty thing, I dealt with it for two years. Is that it though? I wouldn't think something like that would get to you. I know you won that argument though."

"He kissed me," I pause for a few seconds, "It was overwhelming and it's probably going to haunt me when the video is released."

"It was just a kiss, Juliet. It'll be alright."

Remember when you brought up the 'I'd kill myself without you' reference last week? That's how I feel everyday. It's hard because I can't tell you. I've started to get this strange urge lately. It's like I don't want to live, but I don't want to leave you. If you knew how I was feeling, you would think I was insane.

"You're right," I start, "It was just a kiss, I'll be fine. Thanks for putting up with me, baby. It means a lot to me." If I could just tell you everything that I needed to, I'd feel a lot better.

"Of course. I'd appreciate it if you didn't kiss him ever again though," he kisses the top of my head.

"Why would I kiss him when I have you?" We both laugh.

Even though everything in me wants to die, I feel so alive when I'm with Craig.