Tragic Magic

Chapter Twenty Two

"It's okay, Juliet, he'll get over it. He just needs some time to himself right now," Victoria and Allison drag me through the airport.

"I'm not miserable, I don't know where Ronnie got that from. Okay, maybe I've been depressed, but that's because I'm trying to adjust to the changes in my life. Everything is different now and it's a little hard to cope with it all," I say.

"I felt the same way when I moved in with Robert, it gets easier as the days go by," Victoria reassures me.

"Change is difficult, but once you get used to it you'll feel better. Now lets go girls, we've got a cab to chase down," Allison drags us both through the airport.

I haven't seen either band since we got off the plane. Escape The Fate went one way and Falling In Reverse went the other way, thank god. I don't think it's a good idea for them to come in contact ever again.

Allison thought it would be nice to check into the resort before everyone else got back from lunch, so that's what we did. The hotel was grand. I was so excited I could hardly contain myself.

"So we're going to the seventeenth floor," Allison pushes the floor number on the elevator control panel. "I'm in seven hundred six, Juliet is in seven hundred seven, Victoria is in seven hundred eight, and the extra key is for Bryan in seven hundred nine," she passes out the key cards.

"Remember, we're both just a door away from you if you have any problems," Victoria squeezes my hand.

"Why are you both so nice to me?" I finally ask. That was probably not the best response, but I couldn't take it back now.

"You're family now. We honestly care about you, Julie, and we're not just saying that. Let us know if you need anything, okay?" Allison says.

I never expected them to be this kind. I always thought they were average snobby girls using their rock-star boyfriend's fame.

We finally reach the seventh floor and search for our rooms. The hallways were beautiful so I was stoked to see what the rooms looked like. We searched the different hallways for our rooms and finally came across the numbers.

Ronnie never took me on tour with him so this is all new to me. I probably look way too excited, but I honestly didn't care. I've always wanted to go to England, now I get to do it with my favorite people.

We all found our separate rooms and took a tour before meeting up again. My room was absolutely gorgeous. My favorite part was the balcony overlooking the center of London. The room itself was bigger than any room I've ever stayed in and the bathroom was almost half the size of the actual room. I was already in love with this place.

I met up with Victoria and Allison in the floor lounge shortly after I explored the entire seventh floor. This place was amazing.

"So what do you think?" They both greet me.

"I love it here. I'm bummed we'll only be here two nights," I say, taking a seat at the bar with them.

"Oh trust me, it gets better as the tour progresses. Just wait until the show tonight, we're going to have so much fun," Victoria slides me a drink.

"Oh, no thanks. I'm a little out of it today," I slide the cocktail back towards her way.

They both stare at me in silence. Did I do something wrong?

"Hold on, you're Craig Mabbitt's girlfriend, and you don't drink?" Allison gives me a strange look.

"That's impossible," they both stare at me in shock.

I take the drink and sip on it. I'm not against alcohol, but I wouldn't consider myself an alcoholic. I just know how to control myself when I need to. I guess that's just not how everyone else rolls.

"So when do you think they'll be back?" Allison asks Victoria.

"Probably not for awhile. I mean, Craig seemed pretty torn up," she says quietly, trying not to draw my attention.

"It's okay," I force a laugh, "I know he's upset with me, you don't need to hide it from me."

"It wasn't your fault, sweetie. Ronnie said some unforgivable things," Allison gives me a sympathetic look.

"The saddest part is he wasn't completely lying about it," I look down at my drink. "I guess I still had some feelings for him during the video shoot, but it wasn't anything. It was just old memories trying to take me back," the cocktail becomes more satisfying the more I think about the events leading up to where I am now.

I spilled my guts to two people I had only met hours ago. I haven't been able to let him go, but venting like this helps me to leave him in the past. We drank and talked for hours, I think the bartender was getting irritated after awhile. When the band finally showed up, they all looked much happier than when we left the airport.

"We need to talk," Craig takes my hand and drags me away from everyone else. Those four words can make a person lose their mind. It's a terrifying thing to say to someone, you never know what to expect.

Everyone looks at me uncomfortably as I stumble out of the lounge area. I think I've had too much to drink and everyone else knows it.

We walked around the seventh floor in silence before Craig started to say anything. "Look, I don't know what's going on with you, but you need to seriously tell me. I'm sorry I haven't been around lately and if that's what's been bugging you then I promise I won't leave your side again. All of those things he said just got to me and I needed some time to think," he stares straight ahead.

"That's not it at all," I walk closer to him, trying not to let the alcohol get the best of me, "You don't get it, Ronnie is trying to mess with you. I'm not going to lie, I did feel something that day he kissed me, but he was just testing me. I understand that it was nothing now. I have had a hard time telling you things like this because you haven't been around lately. I'm sorry about what happened though. I've really been trying to move on since then."

He refuses to look at me, we just keep walking around in silence. I can't take my eyes off of him for some reason though. I've never seen this side of him.

"You know I love you and only you," I finally say.

"Really?" He stops me and finally looks me in the eye, "Now why should I believe you after what happened?"

I finally lose my balance and stumble to the ground. "All of that was in the past. This happened a month ago when I was still trying to get over the fact that he cheated on me, you know that. I told you everything when I got home that day," My eyes start to tear up. I feel like such a horrible person and I don't even know why.

He pulls me back to my feet and wipes my tears away, "I feel like you intentionally flirt with him because you know he still has feelings for you. Guess what, I have feelings for you too, Juliet."

Is that what I've been doing? I can't even tell what's going on with me anymore.

"I've been trying really hard. I wish you just understood what I'm going through," I say.

"You won't let me understand. I feel like you're living two life's or something," he sighs.

I guess I have been living a double life this past month. Out with Falling In Reverse during the day and hanging out at the house in the evening.

"I'm sorry, Craig." He's completely right about all of this.

"Just promise me something. I want you to stay away from Ronnie, okay?"

"Why would I even look at him when I have you?" I give him a look.

"Exactly, I'm fucking gorgeous," he finally smiles. I feel better about this now. His smile always gets to me.

"You sure are."