Jill's POV
| couple weeks later |
A lot of things have happened that I'm not even sure are possible. My dad banned me from seeing Hayes. I only see him at school and the usual tutoring sessions. I've helped him a lot in English and his parents are very thankful for me to help him. It's not like I have nothing better to do after school. I told Hayes about my dad.. He didn't really try to put in effort in our friendship, he just stopped being my friend. Because he asked out Rebecca and they've been together for about a week now... Nothing separates them. It's disgusting.
My dad was not happy I got detention or got an F on that one paper. He said if that happens again, I get kicked out of the house. Where am I supposed to go? I'm 15! I'll have enough money for at least 2 nights at a hotel, plus for food and clothes.
Shawn and I are basically best friends now. He flirts every now and then and I think it's cute. He's cute. He's helped me a lot with things and I'm happy he came to our school. I couldn't ask for a better best friend. My dad likes him a lot. Rachel and Nash? They are getting stronger and stronger. They have little fights thrown at them sometimes but they make up every single time. I like to think of Nash as my older brother who protects me. Then Skylynn as my younger sister who I love to play barbies and horses with. I love how welcome I am with the Grier's.
And then let's go back to Hayes. Is it possible to love someone when you are 15? I mean really. Not like. Love. My feelings for him have grown rapidly and I just want it to stop. Hayes is always in my mind and there goes another page in my journal to write about. It's like you want it to stop, but you can't because you have grown so fond of that one person that you just want that person to be yours.. No. He loves Rebecca. At least that's what I've heard.
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Right now Shawn and I were on the couch, watching The Fault In Our Stars. My head was on his chest and one of his hands was interlocked with mine.
"Ughhh, more boys need to be like Augustus Waters." I say, whining.
"I could be your Augustus Waters if you are my Hazel Grace." Shawn says.
"Shawn Peter Raul Mendes, is this you asking me to be your girlfriend?" I say, looking up at him.
"That is if you want it to be..." He says, smiling.
I smile.
"I have liked you since I came to Davidson Day and I want you to be mine. I want to show you off and I wanna kiss you whenever I want to. You make me happy and I look forward for a new day because that means I can see you. So, what do you say?" He asks, smiling.
"I say yes. I'll be happy to be your girlfriend."
I think this is what I needed. I think Shawn is the one I truly liked. He isn't a rebound. This will be good for me. Shawn knew I liked Hayes. This is a new step.
"Can I kiss you?" Shawn says, whispering.
"I don't care." I say, whispering back.
He smiles and grabs my face and our lips connect. I smile through the kiss. We pull apart and Shawn smiles.
"You are perfect." He says.
"Mhmm, I don't know about that." I say, lifting up my eyebrow.
"Well prepare for a lot of compliments because I don't see a single flaw." He says.
"Awe." I say, pecking his lips and getting up.
"Do you have to go now?" Shawn asks.
"Yeahhh. I have to tutor Hayes. I think Hayes is back from football." I say back.
