Hayes POV
I woke up with the worst nightmare I could possibly have. Jill leaving me for Shawn. I know she's gone, I just really wish she wasn't. And this is all my fault because I didn't love her fast enough.
It's taking me a lot to not buy a ticket to California and fly out there and have her in my arms again. Just to kiss and hug her, telling her everything is going to be okay. But, my mom is right. She needs her space for awhile, so I shouldn't text or call her. But, it's really hard because I love her. I love her and it hurts me to think she's hurt. I'm getting these nightmares because I'm thinking she's in pain. I wanna know she's okay, but she needs her space.
I get up in my own bed. We went back to our house and left the lake yesterday.
I go to the bathroom and lean my arms on the counter. My cheeks were stained. I've never in my whole life, have ever cried for a girl. It's just that Jill is everything I find perfect in a girl. The way when she smiles, her dimples show, the way her blonde hair falls in her face whenever she laughs, and the way her eyes show a sparkle when we are out in the sun. It's everything about her that makes her perfect.
I start to wash my face. I have football practice today. I don't wanna go because I will be thinking of Jill the whole time and I might get hurt. But, I probably deserve it. Nobody should go through that. I probably hurt her so bad because she decided to go back to California for awhile. Once I'm done washing my face, I wash it off with a cloth and go down stairs.
I see my mom, dad, and Sky sprawled out on the couch watching tv. I sit down and grab my phone. I look at my lock screen. My lock screen is Jill and I at the carnival. She had her lips on my cheek and I showed a cheeky smile at the camera. It was perfect. She was perfect.
"Hey, Hayes. How are you doing?" My mom asks me.
"I just want Jill." I say to her.
My mom looks and my dad. I roll my eyes.
"Where is Jill?" Sky asks me.
"Not here." I say, mumbling.
"Hayes! You know what, go get ready for football. Your dad is gonna take you soon." My mom says to me.
I roll my eyes once again and start to get ready.
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My dad and I were in the car driving to my football practice.
"So, have you thought about it?" My dad asks me.
"Yeah. Nash and I both have." I say.
"And what are you deciding?" He asks me.
"We wanna do it." I say.
"Are you positive?" My dad asks me.
I take a deep breathe and respond. "Yes,"
"Okay, are you sure you wanna do this?" my dad asks me.
"Y-Yeah. Why wouldn't I be?" I say.
"I don't know, I just thought maybe J-"
"Don't say her name, please. It's hard enough as it is." I say, looking out the window.
A single tear drops down my cheek and I wipe it away without my dad noticing.
"You love her don't you?" He asks me.
"Yes," I say, whispering. "With all my heart."
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Football is going my really slow and I just want this practice to end. So I can text Jill a long paragraph and delete it all over again.
"You need to get your head in the game, Grier." My coach says.
