Jill's POV
2 weeks later •••
14 days. 14 days I've been away from North Carolina and some stuff has happened.
I figured my dad was still seeing my mom. That's why he's always away. It shocked me at first, but it's not my life. If they are happy, then so be it. They thought it was better if I'm home schooled. I obviously agreed.
Kacey and I can't be friends. I can't be friends with people who talk shit about me behind my back. Yes, I figured it out. The rumors were true.
Zach is kind of like a close friend now, you could say. He was there at 3 in the morning when I had those break downs. The constant calls because I didn't feel like the real me. But, he went back to Texas. He just visited California. When we said goodbye to each other, it was sad. But hey, that's life. Life is sad and full of misery.
No contact with Shawn what so ever. He hasn't tried to call or text. But, I sure have. Of course he doesn't respond. I wouldn't say I 'gave up' on our friendship. No, we are just going separate ways now.
That just led to him. Hayes. I haven't made any sort of contact with him since I called him asking why he didn't tell me he was famous. He hasn't called or texted me either. Although, I really wish he did because that's when I would be telling him how much I love him and need him.
So let's just ignore each other, try to pretend the other person doesn't exist, but deep down, we both know it wasn't supposed to end like this.
I never believed people when they said how much it hurts to have your heart broken, until it was me.. Lying on the bathroom floor with mascara running down my face, grasping for air.
I guess that's just how love works.
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My cup of tea in my hand, staring out the window as I watch the rain come by. It was raining endlessly here in California. I was surprised, it was completely sunny one minute and now it's all melancholy.
It's basically like me.
The hot tea hits my lips and goes down my throat as I try to swallow it.
My messy bun up at the top of my hair as little strands stuck out.
My sweat pants covering my feet making it almost hard to walk but comfortable to wear.
My hoodie. Hayes' hoodie. Around me as a could smell his cologne once more. Wishing and almost praying he was here right now.
"Jill?" Rachel says, cutting me out of my gaze.
"Yeah?" I reply back.
"Nash and I are gonna do a few errands. Will be back later, okay?" She says.
"Yeah, okay. I might go out and do something independently."
"Okay, just be careful." She says, leaving the door and going down stairs for Nash.
Honestly, I don't know if Nash and Rachel are dating. They always say 'I love you' and kiss, but I don't think they made it official. Because at some point, Nash and I will have to go back to North Carolina and Rachel will still be in California with just my mom. But, today is sure not the day for that.
I sat on my bed as I scroll through my social media. I realized, Hayes hasn't posted anything on any social media and I can't help but wonder. Obviously, he didn't care about me or else he would of done something to show it. He hasn't even talked to fans.
