Jill's POV
Tuesday•••
I don't know why I'm here. It just makes me cry more and more. It's kind of where my reality vanishes almost. It calms me.
I came to the waterfall behind the trees. Where Hayes took me on my first day here and when we went to the park for a walk. I'm wearing Hayes' sweatshirt. The one he gave me. It still smelt like him and I loved that. Because this is really the only thing I have left..
I'm trying really hard not to cry over him because every tear is just one more reminder that I don't know how to let him go..
We are off school for a couple of days, or even weeks at the most. I have some nightmares every now in then about the fire. It was still a scary thought and I'm almost traumatized by it.
My dad was worried, actually. He's coming home today and he said he was gonna take Rachel and I out to Moe's Diner tonight. I thought that was a great idea. I'm also wanna talk to him about Hayes even if we aren't friends. I'm still going to the lake Saturday. Why? Because Nash will be there and I already told Chad and Elizabeth I would go and they seemed really happy by that, so u don't wanna let them down. I just need to keep my distance from Hayes unless I absolutely have to be by him.
Rachel actually did it. She set not only Nash, but Cameron free also. I don't know how Nash is doing. It's gonna weird going to their house when Hayes and I aren't friends anymore.
Their is a pain in my chest by just thinking that. We aren't friends anymore. I'm in the spot he showed me. I'm wearing his sweatshirt he gave me. I'm crying right now because of he hurt me. There's almost not enough pages in my journal to write anymore...
So now I sit on a rock, throwing little rocks in the waterfall while my thoughts consumed me.
"J-Jill?"
I jolt my head up and meet the crystal blue eyes. That one person I once called my best friend. There he was. Right in front of me. His eyes were puffy, almost making his eyes dark. He wore black on black and it looked good on him.
I wonder why he was crying.
I rub my eyes. This all feels like a dream.
"What are you doing here?" Hayes asks me.
"I was just leaving." I say, getting up.
He doesn't stop. He doesn't even look at me. I walk past him and basically run to my house. I soon get there and see my dads car in the drive way. I bolt into the house to see my sister on the couch crying and my dad comforting her.
"W-What's going on?" I ask.
"I-I'm going back to California, Jill." Rachel says.
"What, why?" I say as tears form in my eyes.
I'm actually really wishing I could go with her after all that has happened. Rachel held a plane ticket in her hand. She handed it to me. It said 'all access' meaning, I could come to California whenever I wanted to.
"I can't stay here. You know that." Rachel says.
"You can't leave me, Rachel!" I basically yell.
"Everything is going to be okay, Jill." My dad says.
"No, nothing is okay anymore!" I say. "Rachel, you can't leave me! I need my sister here!"
"This is for the better, Jill." Rachel says, looking down.
I'm just trying to analyze everything. Rachel gets up and goes into her room I think to start packing.
I sit down by my father.
