The Ghost Of You. Gerard Way Historical Fiction.

A Real Kiss

Mabel got on her knees and cried. Uhh, what do I do.? Do I run.? Do I comfort her.? I liked her but we just met. So I decided to question her.

"Why.?" I asked still standing there like an idiot. "I don't want you to die." she cried. Why.? We barely knew each other. Why doesn't she want to lose me.?

She got up and hugged me. Do I hug back.?

Umm, sure.

I hugged her back. Once I did she hugged me harder. Ow. She let go and wiped her tears. "I lost my brother in the war. I don't want to lose anyone else." she sniffed. That's why there was pictures of war. "But, this is my dream. Me and my brother are going to war once he turns eighteen. That's in three years." I said.

"I don't want to get too attached to you. Or else you might die." she said holding back her tears. I looked her in the eye. "I promise I'll come back." I said seriously. She smiled and hugged me. Why was she treating me so kindly.? "But I want to get attached to you." she mumbled. "Why.?" I asked in confusion with my face puzzled. "Because I really like you." she mumbled once again in my chest. I smiled and hugged her back. Mama never hugged me like this.

She let go and wiped the last of her tears. Smiled as she looked up at me. Then, she pressed her lips against mine. I was so shocked. I used to think it was disgusting, but once you try it it's not that disgusting. I think it was called, a kiss. A real kiss. Mama kissed us on our forehead. She placed her hands on the back of my neck to pull me closer. I don't know why, but it felt right to put my hands on her waist. 

Just then, her father opened the door.

I let go right when I saw him. "What is the meaning of this.?!" he screeched. "Papi please don't hurt him.!" Mabel said putting her hand on his chest. He shoved her out of the way and grabbed my shirt with both his hands. "Why were you touching her.??" he yelled in my face. Before I could answer, Mabel answered for me. "I started it.!" she yelled to get his attention. He turned to look at her. "But-but," he stuttered. "I love him.!" she yelled.

Love. That word. That one word. Only mama and Elena have used that word to me. Never someone else.

"With this low life, jobless clown.?" he sputtered while pointing at me. She walked toward me and let his hands off of me and hugged me by my side. "Yes.!" she said. Her father looked at me with eyes that could probably shoot lasers at me. "I have a few words to say to you, come by tomorrow, then we'll talk.!" he said as she stormed inside. Mabel let go and looked down.

"I'm sorry. He can be like that." she said as she looked up and smiled at me. That smile looked like mama's. Mama.! I forgot.! Ugh.! "I gotta go.!" I blurted out. "I'll see you later." I said as I kissed her cheek and ran home.

I quickly jumped in through the bedroom window and saw everyone in there staring at me. "Surprise.?" I said trying to make this situation better. Mama grabbed my ear and sat me down. "Tell me where you were mister.!" Mama yelled as she put her hands on her hips. I guess I should tell the truth. "I was with a girl." I let out trying not to avoid eye contact with mama. Everyone's face was shocked. Everyone widen there eyes. Mama looked back and then looked back at me. "A girl.?" Mama said. "You mean not family.?" Her face was despicable. "I can't be in love.?" I sputtered at her. I never talked to mama like that. I never thought of talking to her like that. "You cannot be in love.! You are eighteen.!" mama blurted out. That's when I got mad. I stood up with caused her to jump back. "I am an adult.! And I can be in love! And I'll have you know she's beautiful.! She's amazing.! And she treats me better than you are now.!" I yelled. Wow. Good for you Gerard. Good for you.

Mama wiped the spit that I got on her face for yelling. "I am giving you two options. You can run away and never come back. Or you can stay here. But you are grounded so you are never leaving this house mister." Mama said calmly. Do I see Mabel again and never see me family.? Or do I stay with family and never see her again.? I needed to go talk to her father. But I want to stay with Elena and Mikey. "I'll stay." I said as I looked at Mikey.

"Good. Now get in bed." Mama said as she left with everyone else. Mama closed the window and locked it. "You. Are surely not brave and confident." she said as she closed the door and locked that too. She left the room with the lantern. Everything was dark.

I laid down in bed untucked. "Gerard.?" Mikey said. "Yes, Mikey.?" I said. "What's her name?" he asked softy. "Mabel." I said with a chuckle. "I want to meet her." he said. "One day." I said before yawning. "One day."

I woke up forgetting everything that happened yesterday. I saw that Mikey was going from his bed. And all his stuff. I went to the living. "Mama.!" I yelled out. "What happened to Mi-" I stopped when I saw no one there. "Mama.? Elena.? Dad.?" I said through the house. My voice just echoed. I looked everywhere. I stopped when I found a note on the kitchen table.

*note*

Dear Gerard,
I'm sorry but, you have to live on your own. You said it yourself you're an adult. Yes, you can be in love. You can start a family. But we had to leave. You are not brave or confident. At all. Nothing has changed. I still love you.
-Mama

I fell to my knees and cried. I was on my own.