Mutinous

Chapter 34

Standing inside the shower with Harry's arms around me, my heart was being surprisingly calm even if I couldn't believe what had just happened. We had done it, and though I was happy, it was just a foreign feeling, but the undeniable grin on Harry's face was definitely worth it. This was for me as well, but I was still glad I had done it for him.

"You alright?" Harry asked running a washcloth up and down my arm.

I nodded. "Y-yeah," mumbling I gave him a smile hoping I seemed convincing.

"You aren't regretting anything?"

I shook my head. "No." I said letting out a deep breath. "I'm glad we did it."

"Me too," he pecked my lips and stood smiling at me once again. It was obvious that he had enjoyed this. Clearly, he had been wanting this so much more than me.

"I'm sorry, if I hurt you though."

I placed a hand on his cheek. "I know you didn't mean to. I'm just glad you enjoyed it."

He frowned and leaned into my hand, closing his eyes. "But you didn't," he stated.

"Harry, look at me," I told him softly, and he opened his eyes. "I'm just happy it was with you. I'm glad I didn't do it while pissed or with a random guy I met at a party. I wanted it to be you. I love you."

"I love you, too." He gave me a small smile.

"Then believe me, when I say I don't regret it. Someone's first time isn't going to be amazing, and you did everything you could to make me relax. I came twice," I laughed. "That's more than you did."

He chuckled and kissed my nose, making me giggle. "Still. I wanted you come three times."

"You worry too much. It was perfect, apart-"

He cut me off with an alarmed look. "Apart from what?"

"I thought-" I looked down wondering why I was going to bring this up. "I thought you wanted- I mean I thought you were going to do- you know from behind, but-" I was rambling just like I always was, and I wasn't sure how to let him know.

"Wait. That's why you got worried? You thought I wanted to do anal?"

I nodded, my cheeks hot.

"I'd never do that to you and especially not for your first time. El, really. I'm sorry I scared you." He kissed my cheek and looked at me. "You really thought I was going to do that?"

I nodded.

"I'm so sorry, El. I've just learned that some find that position better. That it's more pleasurable. I thought it would ease the pain. Sorry, if it didn't work, but please know I would never do that to you. God, El. Really I'm so, so sorry." Now he was the one rambling, and I pressed my lips against his and gave him a smile.

"It did ease the pain. So that was good. But I shouldn't be so naive. I'm so young."

"Just inexperienced, which isn't a bad thing. Trust me, when I say I'm glad I'm taking a lot of your first." He winked at me.

"I'm still young though. And naive. How could I think you would do that?" I covered my eyes with my hands.

"Because you don't know better. But I promise you, I'll never do something you're uncomfortable with. Had you told me to stop, I would have stopped. Please know that."

"I know. And I love you for that." I kissed him and pulled him closer to me so our chests collided.

"So uhm- does it still hurt?" He asked giving a concerned look, and my heart warmed at his thoughtfulness.