My Diary

October 21st, 2025

Dear Diary,

I have been sleeping a lot. I am practically nocturnal at this point. I sleep during the day and am awake and in minimal pain at night.

I got my blood work done and nothing is abnormal. Well, abnormal for me that is. I am still severely anemic and vitamin D-deficient, which I expected. I burn in the sun super easily and I am a vegetarian who eats chicken and fish on occasion.

I have been vegetarian since 2019 because my body stopped producing the enzymes needed to digest meat. I spent 5 months getting sick before I could eat chicken. I never liked eating meat so it was an easy switch. But I never liked red meat so I have been anemic most, if not all of my life.

Things have been okay though.

I have a caseworker for the housing program I am in. She is super nice and kind and understanding. She took a lot of notes about my medical issues and allergies. She is also going to help me get to and from some of my appointments. And she is going to look into me finding a new apartment.

Now, I am in a housing program because of my aunt being a domestic abuser who landed me in a DV shelter. Most people who land in the shelter I was in end up in a housing program. It's to help people get an apartment and a caseworker in case something happens. The housing program pays a portion of the rent and covers any fees that occur when moving into a place.

Caseworkers help find an apartment and talk to the landlord. They also help with getting food if needed and help getting to and from appointments as most people who end up in shelters don't have a car. They do yearly inspections of the apartment to make sure that everything looks good and so they know what to bring up to the landlord if there are any issues with the apartment.

My last permanent caseworker sucked. She kept getting me food that I was allergic to when they had a budget for food. She hardly ever reached out or responded when people did reach out. She also told me that if I looked for another apartment that I would lose the housing program. And she didn't help with reaching out to the landlord when there were some issues that I didn't know how to bring up to him.

I have issues with my downstairs neighbor which is why I want to find a new place. He goes through my mail. As in he opened some of my mail and left it by my door. He plays music so loud that I can hear it from a block away from the building and can feel the vibrations through my bed. He yells at me for the inside front door being unlocked even though I am not the only person who lives in the building and uses the front door. He had a bike stolen from the hallway because he treats the front hallway as an extension of his apartment and leaves a bunch of things in it. He threatened to change the lock on the inside front door if it keeps being left unlocked. He has also tried to parent me. Telling me to go to my classes. When I was in college I didn't attend all of the classes I was signed up for because of medical issues and issues with the professors. I had talked to my academic advisor who told me to just not go.

Yeah, I have a shitty neighbor. Worse than any other shitty neighbor I had dealt with when I lived with my aunt. My caseworker thinks it would be best if she helps me find somewhere else to live. Dealing with him has been annoying.

My pain is much more manageable. It hasn't gotten better, it's gotten worse. But I have learned how to deal with it better.

I have therapy on Thursday and a med review. I missed my last therapy appointment because I got sick. But she was understanding because I genuinely thought that I called her but didn't. I am also going to set up a tattoo appointment on Thursday as well because I might as well. I am going to regret doing so much while being unmedicated for the day. My back will end up killing me by the end of it.

My boyfriend might end up getting LASIK on Thursday but he isn't sure. His anxiety was really bad when he tried on Saturday. He might not do it because of anxiety or because his other partner and I like him better with glasses. I am jealous that he can even get it. My eyesight changing from nearsightedness to farsightedness makes me unable to get LASIK. I don't like wearing glasses and I have to get bifocals.

But yeah. That's it for now.

Sincerely,
The Snow System