The Awakening

:5 dear diry

Dear diary

As the days went on I began to lose my mind was I crazy to believe in this stuff should I get help would doctors even help me or just put me on medication for telling them the shit my old friend pumped into my mind at a young age I'm just a child I thought an inacent person going through life who doesn't know were im going in life I started middle school meet a nice girl Jenn was her name she fild my mind with crazy stories and I feel for them I believed the lies she told I was going through a hard life and it gave me a safe place to get away

Dear diary

I see him everywere i go am i going crazy why is he stalking me no but why do i keep seeing him everywere my friend told me many things about mythical creators being real I believed them I was fascinated she told me about magic and I craved the tasted of freedom she told me how she was this were wolf she explained just wolf because she could turn completely when ever she wanted I played right into it but as time pasted I asked questions I wanted answers I wanted truth why have I never seen her change or anyone why was I so normal I hated myself because I was nothing more then weak I had no power just the examinations in my mind

She told me about this guy he was a vampire he also could read minds she manipulated me into being so scared to life with out her with out her the would would eat me up I was scared people would see how I lived I was scared they could read my mind into knowing how disgusting my family was but most of all I hated when they asked questions or looked down at me I hated how they thought I was nothing but trash and that's all I was to them

I never meet him never talked nothing but somehow this man became my nightmare so many emotions filled my mind I  really felt close to them

She told me how they can astral project into homes and see and hear everything anyone was doing I used to lay in bed lone believing he was watching me and in some weird sick way protecting me from the world

I felt like he had a hart like he cared one night sleeping and it was morning I didn't want to get up but something pushed down at the sick of my head telling me get up got to school my friend just said it was him she told me he would go to school when I wasn't there as me I thought how angry I was because it's fucking with my grades but I also thought he cared in pe my shoes would get united and she told me he was missing with me

Over and over lies fild my mind I loved who he was but was angry why would someone watch you suffer and do nothing to help nosing I was baking for the answers but realized that I will never get them

i still see him the guy we nicked named VB stands for vampire boy his real name was Joseph i later over heard the PE teacher call him but how can he be here of all places with his stupide pail white face and dark black hair with blue eyes.

When Jenn lifted me I felt alone and vonrabale sad depressed and scared to walk through the school alone I feel into depression I stoped washing I stop wanting to eat I stoped caring but what made this even harder was seeing him at school and I just told myself to put my head down and don't look at him but maybe he would care and talk to me maybe he would tell me the truth and I could find closure in his woulds but that never came I missed a lot of school I couldn't get out of bed to see another day

This is crazy im still not finding whos diary this is and all this just seems weird her friend minipulated her telling her carzy storys and then she leaves her and says its all just some sick joke. Are vampires even real then again im real and aparintly im an angle but this doesn't make sense if it was real why would she tell her.