When I woke up I didn't open my eyes, I didn't open them because I knew when I did I'd have to live my life, unlike my baby. I squeezed my eyes so I wouldn't cry and sighed quietly, gathering my emotional self. I opened my eyes after failed attempts of falling back asleep and saw that Louis was still asleep. I propped my head up on my hand and stared at him, his face looking as relaxed as ever and I smiled. "I don't know what to do about you," I whispered and he stayed sound asleep. I slowly swung a leg out of his bed and stood up on it, pulling the other forward.
I walked quietly out of his bedroom and into his living room where Cara was sprawled out on his couch, I chuckled at her and felt around for my phone. I didn't have it then I remembered I had left it on charge in the kitchen. I turned around and walked back in there to see that it was in its' exact same place I left it, and I had a lot of notifications. I noticed that Anne texted me first to ask when I was going to get William today, I unlocked my phone and thought about it. I don't see any point in not leaving to get him now and maybe coming back, or going back home. I nodded at this and went into Louis' bathroom where my clothes were.
I changed back into my clothes from yesterday then quickly jotted down a note in the kitchen, then setting it on the table for whoever woke up next. I grabbed my car keys and quietly went outside to my car that was parked on the curb. I got in and flipped the visor down to see how I looked, I didn't look too bad considering I had just woken up but I wish I had a hair brush. I shrugged, flipping it back up then starting my car, eager to see my sweet baby boy.
Tons of thoughts swirled around my mind as I drove and it was hard to focus, I zoned out about two times and nearly ran off the road. I shook my head furiously trying to wake myself up before having a child in my car.
I just couldn't stop thinking about Harry and how I had confided in Louis what I hadn't told anyone. I had been too afraid to tell anyone how I felt because I knew they'd deny anything negative I said. Louis though, I knew he would listen to me and hear me out, he wouldn't just back Harry up for no reason.
The biggest thought in my mind was how even though Harry losing interest was hurting, I still loved him, a lot. I know I love Louis and I love Harry but I'm only in love with one, and this time it's the one who doesn't love me as much. I bit my lip to keep from crying and parked my car, never being more ready to see my baby and get my mind off things.
I got out and before I was at the door Anne had opened it, William in her arms. "Lilli! We had the best two days, I think he has something to say to you," she smiled at me and I raised an eyebrow.
"What do you say sweetie?" I asked him and he reached his arm out for me. I took him after Anne kissed his forehead and I looked down at him.
"C'mon Will," Anne encouraged and I nodded my head smiling at him. "Who is that?" She pointed to me and William opened his mouth a little and he mumbled.
"Mama," he got out and I smiled so big and hugged him really tight, kissing all over his face, making him giggle.
"When did he say it first? I missed his first word, I feel so bad-" I started but Anne just shook her head, cutting me off.
"Don't, there'll be more firsts, but he said it last night. I was talking to him about you and he just said it, he said mama and I had him say it some more, he's really intelligent." I let him hold my finger in his hand and nodded at Anne, happy tears coming to my eyes.
"I've noticed, I cannot thank you enough for keeping him," Anne flicked her wrist and I sighed.
"You say that every time, now go back home I'm sure Harry misses him too," she smiled and I felt somewhat guilty but nodded, turning around.
