Not Crazy. {Book 1}

Chapter 9

Spencer's Pov:

"Finding new ways to hurt each other is what we're good at."-Mandy Patinkin (Jason Gideon)

"Bye Spence."

My heart immediately lit up when she said the old name she used to call me.

I thought she was never going to call me that again after what I did to her, but she did.

She actually called me spence.

"Was that JJ?" Garcia asked when I returned in the room, I managed to control my excitement, so I could look serious.

"Uh-yeah." I said sliding my phone back into my front pants pocket.

"What did she want?" Rossi asked worried

"It doesn't matter." I said shrugging

"Well of course it does, she could be going through something, she could be trying to hurt her-"

"Don't. She's not going to hurt herself again. She won't. Okay? What we talked about is none of your guys's business. Alright?" I snapped cutting Garcia off, surprising everyone from my outburst.

Garcia,Rossi,Blake,Kate and Morgan all looked at me surprised...wait..where was Hotch?

Considering how I just snapped at everyone, now wasn't the time to ask.

"I think I should go." I said quickly walking out of the conference room, grabbing my coat and bag of of my desk on the way out.

Maybe it wasn't right for me to have snapped at them like that, but I stuck up for JJ.

She wasn't hurting herself again.

That's not what she wanted to talk to me about...was it?

No, there was no way she would be that stupid again. I have faith in her.

And she was better, she was healthier.

What she needed to tell me was important I could tell by the way that she spoke on the phone.

I really did need to listen to her fully, considering she was always there for me, through my addiction, and even when Emily 'died'.

Once I went outside to the parking lot, my mind wondered off about tomorrow.

What was I supposed to wear?

How was I supposed to act?

Why did she pick me out of anyone?

Was she going to forgive me?

Or what was I supposed to say?

What was she going to tell me?

Thousands of questions raced in my mind

Which wasn't something new of course, thoughts and questions always raced around in my head.

Even when I'm sleeping they do, I can't help it, my mind thinks all the time.

Thousands of questions.

Thousands of worries.

Thousands of thoughts.

But...for these certain questions, for once in my life, I didn't have the answers too them.

Any of them.

Which was completely surprising.

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(A/N:) Sorry for the short chapter!