Not Crazy. {Book 1}

Chapter 18

Spencer's Pov:

"Your to save me stop holding your breath."- Rihanna

I stood there in the empty abandoned park surprised by the voicemail I just listened too.

She left me a voicemail.

That number was her.

It wasn't some stranger, it was her calling for help, she was calling me, she needed me, she sounded so scared and I didn't answer the damn phone because I thought it was some stranger?

I just kept hanging up.

I should've answered.

She told me she loved me.

She didn't want to die.

She wasn't crazy, she was scared, alone, and in danger.

For all I know, right now she could be dead. She probably was dead.

No.

I can't think like that. Because if I do then ill give up on looking for her, and there's no way in hell that I'll ever do that. I'm going to find her-I just can't do it by myself.

I was going to need the teams help-even if they all hated me right now..especially Emily. Emily had every right to be mad, so I couldn't blame her. I spilled her secret, called her a liar and slapped her so hard I think it left a bruise.

Even if they all hated me or were mad at me, they were going to help me find JJ, because she's their friend and that's what friends do.

I got up off of the old park bench and walked back to the car.

I started up the engine again and thought about walking back in there, the looks I would get-the glares.

Would they still be there?

No of course they would. Hotch wouldn't let me storming out affect the job.

Right?

Maybe he was freaking out at Emily for the abortion still...maybe he too stormed out, needed to clear his mind.

Maybe Morgan left,I had no idea.

Without thinking, I grabbed my phone and clicked Blake's contact name.

It took a few rings before she answered.

"Reid?" She asked surprised.

"I got a voicemail from JJ." I admitted, knowing she had me on speaker.

"What?" Rossi's voice asked in the background.

"She managed I get ahold of a cellphone somehow and call me, and ended up leaving me a voicemail."

"Did you send it to Garcia? She could be able I track the number or location of the call."

"No, not yet, I'm on my way back to the station now." I said glancing at the stop sign, stopping the car looking both ways.

The road was empty.

It's like I was the only person driving here, which I probably was. I hated how quiet it was.

I hated quiet roads.

It always reminded me of scary movies-where if hour car breaks down or something this is the type of place where you die-heck from my job I knew that.

"Okay, hurry up. We think we have another lead." Kate said snapping me out of my weird thoughts.

"Really? What?" I asked surprised, they were able to get some leads in the three hours I was gone?

"Well seeing that they were able too.." I zoned out of listening to Rossi talk and stared at the horror in front of me.

"Oh my god." I said shocked.

"What is it?" Blake asked confused

I pulled my car over, to the side of the road and struggled to get my seatbelt unbuckled.

"Dammit!" I yelled stressed out.

"Reid?" Kate asked

It finally unsnapped and I flew open my car door.

The phone was in my hand and I stared at the sight not know what to say.

Not knowing what to do.

"Is everyone with you guys?" I asked noticing the black SUV.

"Everyone except for Emily." Morgan said slowly and confused.

"Shit."

I immediately began looking around for her. She had to have gotten out if the car.

She had to of.

"Reid what's going on?" Hotch asked again, concerned.

"I need an ambulance! And a fucking fire truck!" I yelled over the fire, where was she?

"What why?" I heard Blake ask

"Reid what's going on?! Where are you?" Rossi asked

"Get a fucking ambulance!" I repeated.

"Call Garcia see if she can track where Reid is. Now."

I threw my phone into the ground, and stared.

This was all my fault.

She probably was leaving because Hotch and Morgan were fighting again or whatever, this was my fault.

She was inside of that car.

Dead.

Because of me.

"No." I whispered shaking my head.

"No. No. No." My knees felt weak, soon I fell to the cemented ground my eyes filling with tears.

I don't know how long I laid on the ground crying, I honestly don't but apparently long enough for the ambulance to come.

The sirens blared, but I didn't move.

I felt sick to my stomach.

"Oh my god." Blake cried once a couple at doors slammed.

"Reid what's going on?" Hotch asked once he shut his car door.

I didn't answer.

"Reid. Reid. W-where's Emily?"

I sat up a little.

I looked over at him and tears were in his eyes, he immediately tried running, tried to go into the car but Rossi managed to hold him back.

"I'm going to be sick." Kate said covering her mouth turning away from the scene.

"Aaron calm down." Rossi's voice said.

"She's in there, I have too-"

"There's nothing you can do right now."

I looked over at Blake, she had one hand covering her mouth while the other held her chest.

I've never seen her cry before.

I've never seen Hotch cry before.

I've never seen Morgan cry before.

It hurt seeing them all like this.

But there wasn't anything I could do, I didn't know what to do honestly. I felt bad for Hotch and Morgan. I felt bad for me. I felt bad for Emily.

I watched quietly, as they tried to put the fire out, there was no way she was still alive.

Have hope right?

Well I didn't.

I've been through hell.

The fire slowly went down, and soon there was only a couple small flames. A firefighter ran over by the car and I guess was going to pull out the body.

Rossi managed to turn Aaron around, so he didn't see it, while everyone else turned around as quickly as try could.

That's when I heard those two little small words, that made no sense, but made me relieved.

"It's empty."