Now and Forever (Lux Series)

Reality

We were all still shocked at the brutality of Antony's psychotic impulses, and what he's willing to do.
That night we sat in the lounge glancing at anything to take my mind off the harsh reality.
Daemon and I still weren't talking and I hated it. I hated that I felt trapped and I knew Daemon didn't mean it but it still hurt. And the guilt of killing Blake still haunted me, even though he deserved it. He was my first victim.
In theory, he broke my murderous virginity, but I doubt Daemon would like that thought.
We sat close but it was awkward because Daemon didn't touch me what so ever. In a past life this would be bliss but in this life I wanted him to hold me.
To take care of me. I wanted to take care of him.
We sat in silence and I watched as Dawson held Beth and stroked her shoulder and she nuzzled into his shoulder and their love was visible from miles around.
Archer's affection for Dee wasn't that obvious, he had an arm around her shoulder but it was more of a territorial image than a loving one. But we all knew that he loved her and Dee had fallen for him.
'Dee wants to know what up with you and Daemon' a voice came into my head, and my eyes shot down to see Luc with a phone in his hand.
I tried not to smile as I saw Dee was staring at Luc in search of a reply.
'We just had a fight' I spoke.
'He brought up Blake didn't he' he said, I flinched and tried to hold in my tears.
"Keep out of her head" Daemon said sharply and slowly glided his hand over to mine. He squeezed my hand and rubbed his thumb along my fingers.
Dee smiled at me and I couldn't help but smile as Daemon awkwardly scooted over closer to me.

His lips migrated next to my ear and whispered "I'm sorry for earlier".
I smiled and squeezed his hand back before leaning on his shoulder. I knew things still weren't right between us but the simple gestures made up for it.

That evening, I sloshed my hands into the sink of soapy bubbles and washed the dishes one by one and handed them to Dee were she would dry and then had the dishes to Beth who would in turn but the dishes away.
"We are going to meet the boys for lunch tomorrow" said Dee hiding her smile "in the town. We thought you would want to meet everyone and by everyone we mean the people who obsess over the boys and the bitches and dickheads". I couldn't help but laugh and we all giggled even Beth.
"I'm not even joking" she said "they won't leave us alone they are like orphaned puppies and they bitch. Jesus Christ they can bitch as if there slug eyebrows and fake tan depend on it".
We were now in fits of laughter and Beth ended up dropping a plate.
We all paused as the smash echoed throughout of the house and then we all collapsed laughing at absolutely nothing except the fact that the laughter of a family cured all pain and sadness and this evening I would never forget. I would always remember this as the night we were all together and health. And I had a feeling this wouldn't happen again for a while.

After cleaning up, Dee went to sit with the guys and Beth and I starting talking.
"I know we have never been close" I began "but I hope we can be someday".
"I do to" she said quietly "I know that what you went through is no way similarly to my experience but I hope you feel like you can talk to me. About anything, it can be about anything I just hope we can become closer" I said.
"Thank you" Beth said quietly she placed the plate on the counter "I mean Dawson has always been able to listen and talk to me so easily but with the whole DOD situation and Ashley. I haven't been able to talk to him, and I seem to have put up some wall against everyone. Every time I try to talk to him about anything to do with it." She took a huge gulp "he gets angry and asks me how I am. And I don't want to be treated like a toddler and to tell you the truth I don't want to talk about it. I don't want to talk about the unimaginable pain that I go through everyday trying to forget it. I feel so sick and my heart bursts every time I see his heart shrink for me. He doesn't want me anymore, the reason we fell in love was because we could talk to each other. Now I'm going to be a single mum with no job and debatable amount of depression!" She burst into tears and without warning she through herself into my arms and went into uncontrollable fits of sobbing.
I put my arms around her and held her in my arms and cradled her and we sat on the floor.
Dawson came running in and through himself on the floor and cupped her back so Beth could be handled with care. She continued crying and Dawson soothed her with kind words. The rest of them came in after.
Daemon came in behind me and put his arm around my waist and guided me away.
"It's getting late and I have work tomorrow" he said to Dee "I think we should go to bed and leave them calm down".
I nodded and walked up the staircase with Daemon at my side, and Daemon walked while gradually moving his hand up my back until it was just below my shoulder blade. I smiled at the small gesture and moving closer to him, and we walked into the bedroom. I still felt uncomfortable in the room thinking people were watching me sleep. But I quickly got into bed and tried not to think about it.

Daemon turned the light off after changing, and he turned towards me so we were only a few cm's apart. I stared into his bright green eyes which glowed into the darkness and while I stared at his perfect face. He used his fingers to take a strand of hair out of my face and then his finger lingered across my cheek to my chin were his lifted up my chin and brought his mouth to mine were we shared a kiss of immortal pleasure and love developed over generations of density contemplating what would happen. And we could only pray that the rest of our lives would be as perfect as this kiss.