A Human's Touch || BillFord (Gravity Falls)

A Toy To You

!! Suggestive by implication !!

[Ford POV]:

I hated how I let him get to me, even without shaking his hand my mind just mirrored the world he created for me until I was believing it too. I felt like a fool. I mean of course he'd lie to me, its so obvious! I feel physically sickened. Worst of all, he dragged the kids into it. What was going on between me and Bill I never wanted anyone else to see, they wouldn't understand. I mean how could they? I was walking around with someone who might as well be the devil, even before, I struggled to catch on. I feel just like I did in my college days. The world around us, in this bubble was twisting, he was getting impatient. I believe I could use this to my advantage though, because if the bubble can't hold stable then it'll become undone. I watched as he set down the kettle. "Bill, please, this is between us, they have nothing to do with this!" I argued. His eye rolled over me like a spotlight, something that had once comforted me now left me in a state of stress, maybe even a little fear. The stress was even hurting my body after a while, sharp pains in my ribs I pretended not to notice. "They've attacked me all summer, it's time to return the favor!" He raised his hand and grabbed Mabel, with a form like this he could snap her neck with just two fingers. "WAIT! I'll do anything.." I mumbled, of course not counting a handshake, but I watched has he considered his options with that twisted grin on his face. He set Mabel down. His face turned smug, I felt disgusted for what was about to happen. "Well you heard the man. Why don't you kids go play while the grown-ups talk?" He pushed the teacup across the plane and it disappeared, I assumed the kids made it out. The bubble took hold of it's original design again, we were in my room in the shack, and it was exactly how I left it. Bill chose a normal height to present himself at as well. "I know you won't give me a hand shake, but maybe I could get you to change your mind" He smirked as he put a hand on my waist, the hand that used to give me butterflies now just felt like cold leather against my skin. "No, you won't. I'm only doing this to protect the people I care about from you. You're a monster" I crossed my arms. "I like the word muse a little better" He kissed my jawline, I just averted eye contact. He wouldn't give up, but I wanted to prolong this event for as long as I could. He cornered me to the couch and slipped off my trenchcoat. I slipped off his bowtie just like I had many times before, but there wasn't love behind it, it was more like a business exchange.
I'll skip over the more unpleasant details. I hated that I missed how he felt. As soon as I was redressed I just tried to ignore him but something was still on my mind. I swear I heard him cry during our exchange, at least a little. It made me wonder if he'd been missing me like this too, but it could never be. "Can I just go home?" I sighed as i pulled my sweater back on, paired with my trenchcoat and other textiles. "Can we at least talk?" He actually seemed sad now, and I hated it. "What is there to talk about? I gave you what you wanted, stop acting like a clingy-" I stopped myself and shook my head. "Say it" he grumbled. "Like a clingy ex!" I yelled at him. "How can you be like this after karaoke night?!" He brought up childishly. "Stop talking about karaoke night, nothing happened!" I ran my fingers through my hair in frustration. "You dont know that! And I know you don't know that because last time we talked about it I checked your memories!" He teleported infront of me, now more properly dressed. I sighed "Then just stop bringing it up!" I balled my hands into fist but kept them at my side. "No! All you ever do is call on me when you need me then push me away when it comes to what I want! If we're going to suffer in this marriage then I want you to suffer too!" He yelled at me like a high schooler in a relationship. "You're a demon! I don't want to be around you! And we're not married!" I tried to leave the room but he removed the door with his powers. "I just don't understand how you can be so inconsiderate" He huffed. "Me?! You've murdered entire planets of people and you have the audacity to try and ask if you can take my world away from me too, expecting me to just say yes like some lapdog of yours?! You're sick, Bill!" I shoved him but my hands just phased through him. "Only sick for you, Fordsy" He smiled as he tried to pull me into a kiss. I pushed his face away from me. He just smiled and licked between my fingers. Even with gloves on it felt disgusting. I shuddered and out my hands in my pockets. "You're gross" I avoided his eye. "Don't pretend you don't love me. I'm not really just an item to you, right?" Now he seemed like he really just wanted to hear approval from me, but he would never get it. Never again. I almost laughed "I wish. You have no idea how much I hate you, I hate you more than there are galaxies in the cosmic web. I wish you were just as insignificant to me as an item" I stared into his cat like eye with burning hatred. "I really am just a toy to you, then. Is that all it was the whole time? You seriously think you can tell me you felt nothing?!" He prodded on. I shook my head "Shut up already! Let me go!" I wanted to beg, but I can't give him the satisfaction; still I'll ask as many times as it takes. "No , I'm not done yet! How am I supposed to just let you go after everything?" A bit of truth finally came out. "I'm not your psychiatrist, Bill, I don't have to solve your problems" I deflected. "I let you live your wildest dreams and you're still not happy yet? How selfish are you going to be?!" He glared at me. I didn't wanna hear it anymore. "Just let me leave" I adjusted my glasses. "But I need you!" He stepped closer to me but i turned around, I didn't want to face him. "What for? Destroying the world? You know I won't let you and I won't join you either" I didn't have to turn my head to know that stung. "I'm just tired, I felt like a toy to you, and sometimes I still do. Just something tou play with then throw away" He turned, not wanting to face me either. "You lied to me the whole time I knew you, so don't bother acting victim because I'm not falling for it" I finally looked at him. "I would've done anything for you, but you and your trivial attachments ruined everything. You just didn't know how to have fun and you blew everything out of proportion" He turned to face me again. "I never asked for you to hurt anyone, especially not me or my family!" I raised my voice. "I wouldn't have had to if you just traveled the galaxy with me!" He flashed red. "I will NEVER be a tool for you again, so just stop asking" I leaned against the wall where the door used to be. He was hurt but it quickly changed to a wicked smile. "What are you going to tell the family? What would they think of their precious hero if they knew he didnt just help a demon like me, but DATED as well. You even tore apart your best friend's marriage to help with our portal, do you think HE will forgive you?" His eye gleamed with excitement. He knew what he was doing, insecurity hitting. For once, I held my tongue though. I just looked to the wall like he'd give me back my chance to escape. My mind blazed through the facts of our exchange again. "You're not holding your end" I pointed out. A flaw in his own rules. His smile faltered. He seemed exhausted of our fighting too.
"Fine." He just mumbled, and the bubble engulfed in blue flame with the snap of his fingers, and I was in a rundown library in his pyramid. Now I just needed to find the twins.

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A/N

Sorry if this kind of ass I lost the momentum I had for this book a little but I still kind of have an ending plan?? And I doubled my daily writing for today's specifically because I forgot to write here yesterday, so I hope this still makes up for the lack of a post yesterday in some way.