I'm trying so hard
Not to cut on my arm
Just to see if I'll feel anything
I'm trying so hard
Not to get out a pen
And start writing
those letters again
I'm trying so hard
Not to take the pills
And get addicted again
Because I love the way
they make me feel
I'm trying so hard
To push my feelings down
And keep everyone happy
Because everyone else's happiness
Means more than my own
I'm trying so hard
Not to break promises
Because if I do
Everyone will start watching
And inspecting me
I'm trying so hard
To keep myself from liking you
Reminding myself of what
You put me through
I'm trying so hard
To be nice to everyone
But sometimes being mean
Seems like more fun
I'm trying so hard
To fake a smile
So that no one sees
My tear stained cheeks
I'm trying so hard
To block out the monsters
The voices
And the demons
I'm trying so hard
To just live
And be free
I'm trying so hard
Just to be happy
But I don't think I ever will be
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Hey everyone!! I hoped you liked this poem
My updates might start slowing down from school and stuff but please stick with me.
Song recommendation: In the End by Linkin Park
There's someone out there who loves you
-Jess
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