Pens, pencils and poems

The monster

Not feeling the razor

But still felling pain

It's the pain that the monster

Continues to give you

Each and every day

Blood is dripping

On to the floor

Which proves that promises

That you had spoken

Have just broken

By the monster that lives inside

They tried to convince you

It'll be okay

They told you

You can't break this promise

Don't let the monster win

And you tried so hard not to

But

At the twitch of you arm

The blink of an eye

New scars were being made

Going across your thigh

It's not your fault

You try to scream

But you can't be heard

Not through the voices

Of people's whispering

And judging eyes

You try to show them

That it was the monsters fault

You didn't do it

It was the monster

It took over

It's voice got inside you

It started screaming at you

You cried and cried

You've tried to get it

To go away

It does as it's told

And leaves for awhile

But eventually comes back

With evil haunting smile

It holds out the razor

Puts it in your hand

Then

It gets in your head

And it screams

"YOU'RE NOT PERFECT YOU'RE DIFFERENT AND SHOULD BE DEAD"

You try to resist

And remind yourself

That you deserve to live

But all that it says

Hits you

Right in the heart

And it hits hard

And even though you

You promised them

You just can't help it

The monster is hard to resist

It's not your fault

The monster made you this way

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Song recommendation:

I'm Not Okay by My Chemical Romance

And I have another recommendation

And it's Last Resort by Papa Roach

I hoped you liked it. I've been battling with my internal monster and right now I've been resisting it pretty well but I know it gets hard. Just try your best and just remember that if your life doesn't have ups and downs your dead.

(Think of your heart beat for the quote)

There's someone out there who loves you

-Jess