Pens, pencils and poems

Living to save you pain

Pens and pencils

Laying around

A pencil sharpener

And a blade

On the ground

Stacks of letters

On top of the bed

With names scribbled

Across the top

And my words

Of everything needed to be said

I take a deep breath

Look around the room

Kind of wanting

For someone to show

I look at the pictures

Hanging around my room

I play my favorite song

I put the gun to my head

I think of the memories

Then I remember

I remember all the promises

Needing to be kept

I put the gun down

I hide it forever

I burn my letters

I start to cry

It's not my time

To say goodbye

I stay strong for myself

And for all of them

To save people

From having my pain

Including saving those

Who hurt me

And deserve to

Feel guilty the most

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Hey everyone. This is my first thingy on watt-pad. I hoped you liked it. It's not very good but it's a start. Please don't hurt yourself the beautiful person reading this. Everything will be okay in the end and if it's not okay it's not the end. There is someone who loves you. :)

-Jess