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Cant seem to get over it

My head hurts.

I just want to cry.

I just need the pain to go away.

When will everything just be fine?

When will I sleep properly again?

When will I not dream of you?

Why can't I get over this?

It's in the past,

But I can't stop thinking about it

And I just keep going back.

Back to when I was happy.

Back to being in love.

I remember and...

My heart breaks again.

We left so many things undone.

There's so many things,

That still need to be said.

I have to know,

Did you cheat on me

With my best friend?

Were you lying

When you said "I love you"?

When you called me beautiful

Was your mind thinking about her?

I'm over thinking things.

I just need to be like Elsa

And let it go.

I'm trying to take Raffiki's advice

And learn from my past.

I know what happened.

I know what went wrong but..

I can't get past that.

I tried Hakuna Matata

But it didn't work for me.

My life's not a Disney movie.

I'm not a princess.

Happy ending are so rare.

I'm too young to feel this.

Trust me I know that.

I was never meant to be yours

But even when my head says no,

My heart left you a spot.

I don't want to like you,

I'm not suppose to.

You have a girlfriend...

Right?

Me liking you is wrong

Right?

You and I...

Don't belong.

My head constantly screams

"Get a grip, he's not worth it!!!"

And my heart automatically replies :

"Yes he is. Trust me, you and him

Are perfect."

Maybe we are.

There's a chance we would be...

But it doesn't matter.

Plus my heart is stupid.

Perfect doesn't exists..

Technically.

It only exists as an opinion,

As someone's point of view.

What's you're point of view?

What goes on inside your head?

What I really want to know..

Is what do you think of me?

I know I'm too clingy

But that's because the people,

I let in my heart,

Always break it.

You, her, him, them,

My parents, my siblings,

Even my best friends.

I should've learned,

Not to let people in.

People don't break your heart,

From the outside...

The get inside

And go from inside to out.

But I can't help it!!!

I don't know what to do.

My head hurts

And I'm so confused.

Maybe I'll cry tonight

And drown your voice out.

Maybe all the memories of us

And all the pain with just..

Ride in my tears and

Float out .

I just want my pillow

And my music right now.

I just want to get lost

In the music

And not think about,

You,

Her,

Or anything

And just be

Okay for the first time

in along time
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Hey everyone!!!!!!!!! I just wanted to update something since I feel like it's been awhile. I also just wanted to relieve some stress so here's this.

You guys should know that I'm obsessed with Disney movies... Like weirdly obsessed.. But my mom is too so it's kind of in my genes to like it. To balance that out I also love scary movies!! I know I'm weird

Btw: Raffiki is the baboon in all of the Lion Kings. If you don't know what Hakuna Matata is then.. Just watch the Lion King, Right now!!!

Song recommendation: Sad by Maroon 5

There's someone out there who loves you

-Jess