Day By Day; MYG

27

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Y/N didn't stick around breakfast much longer, not caring to be around all her favorite foods when she couldn't eat any of it. She really wished she could've eaten though because then she'd at least have something to do other than pace around her room, obsessing over her upcoming surgery. She wasn't sure how long she had paced around her room, trying to find something to distract her, but her mind wouldn't settle long enough to focus on anything. So, she just paced. She paced until there was a soft knock at her door.

"Come in," she called out, pausing in her pacing. A second later Yoongi peeked his head in with a lopsided smile on his face. Once the alpha fully stepped into the room he closed the door behind him, stuffing his hands into his jean's pockets.

"Hey, Angel, how are you doing?" He mused. Letting out a sigh, Y/N sat down on the edge of her bed, rubbing her hands against her thighs. Yoongi quickly sat down next to her, grabbing one of her hands in both of his.

"I'm nervous," she said truthfully, letting out a small chuckle. "I can't seem to find any way to distract myself."

"Is there anything I can do to help?" Yoongi asked, tilting his head to the side.

"Can we just... cuddle or something? ... I honestly can't focus on anything, and you always help calm me down," Y/N admitted shyly, playing with Yoongi's rings. The alpha couldn't help but stare adoringly at his mate before pulling her further onto the bed with him.

"Anything you want, pup. I'm always down for cuddling," he smiled, pulling them to lay down so that Y/N was laying on his chest. As soon as she made contact with his chest Y/N felt a tremendous amount of her anxiety melt away. Keeping one hand on Y/N's waist Yoongi reached over to the side to pull the blanket the omega had thrown to the side earlier over them before wrapping his free arm around Y/N's waist while she wrapped her arms around his torso.

Y/N felt so warm and safe that she couldn't help it as she scooted up, burrowing her face in Yoongi's neck, nosing over his scent gland as she lightly scented him, letting out a light purr of contentment. She knew her eyes had gone blue as her inner Omega surfaced. Y/N had always resisted these urges in the past, never feeling safe enough to let herself relax, be vulnerable, but in this moment, she felt safe enough to let herself go just this once. Y/N purred a little louder as she began to scent Yoongi more, cuddling closer to him if that was even possible.

Y/N's bliss was short-lived though when she was brought out of her trance at the light rumbling of Yoongi's chuckle. "Feeling a bit clingy today?" He mused in a playful tone. Logically, Y/N knew he wasn't upset with her for what she was doing, but having herself so bare and open, her wolf couldn't help but feel like Yoongi didn't like what his mate was doing. Y/N stopped scenting, stopped purring, feeling an intense wave of embarrassment wash over her. Trying to real her emotions back in, she slowly moved away from her mate's neck.

"I'm sorry," she choked out, feeling another wave of embarrassment. This was another reason she never let herself get so far into this headspace. With her emotions so raw, her mood would flop all over the place. She went to pull fully back from Yoongi's neck, trying to bring herself back to reality when Yoongi's hand settled on the back of her head, stopping her from moving further.

"Please don't apologize. I like it." And with those words, Y/N felt herself relax again. Before she let herself relax fully though, she leaned back again, not to distance herself from Yoongi, but so she could look him in the eyes.

"Really?" the omega asked, her eyes still a dim icy blue.

"Yes, I'm happy you feel safe enough around me to fully relax and let your omega out. I think it's cute," he said, sounding genuinely sincere, a light pink blush dusting across his cheeks at his last comment. He brought his hand up to cup Y/N's cheek, gazing at her like she was the most precious thing in the world. Y/N gave him a thankful smile, leaning into his hand for a second before resuming her position from earlier. She quickly fell back into her relaxed state as Yoongi tightened his grip slightly on his mate's waist. They stayed like that for a long time as Yoongi let Y/N scent over his neck and jaw and cuddle him as she pleased. "I know you probably don't want to talk about this stuff, or anything related to the subject right now, but I think we should talk about it so we aren't doing this at the last minute. Is there anything you want me to bring to the hospital with us to make you feel a bit more at ease?" Yoongi asked apprehensively, not wanting to ruin his omega's mood. Y/N's purring ceased as she drew back from his neck again so she could focus on the conversation.

"Yeah, maybe one thing..." Yoongi nodded, urging Y/N to go on. "My bag, you know the one you found me with," she muttered, drawing small imaginary circles on Yoongi's chest. It was the one thing she had when she came here that was hers, and in a way, it was like a security blanket.

"Of course, Angel, we'll grab it on our way out along with some clothes for you to change into when we leave the hospital." Y/N nodded along, wanting to get past this semi-anxiety-inducing conversation as quickly as possible. Yoongi sensing this, gently stroked her spine in the way he knew relaxed her. "Lay back down, Angel, we have a few more hours before we need to go, and we can stay like this as long as you want until then unless you decide you want to do something else. You can let yourself go and be vulnerable, I won't let anything happen to you." Y/N tiredly laid back down, burying her head into his neck.

"Mm, thank you, Yoon," Y/N mumbled, not really thinking anything of the nickname until it passed her lips. She immediately felt his heart rate increase slightly under her hand she had laid on his chest.

"You don't need to thank me for everything," he chuckled lightly. "You don't know how much I would do for you, Jagiya," Yoongi said in a soft tone, leaving a light peck on the top of her head. Y/N's face immediately heated up at the nickname, only able to squeak out a hum of acknowledgement before burying her face deeper in Yoongi's neck as if it could hide her flustered state, closing eyes again.

Over the next few hours, Y/N kept on bouncing between consciousness and sleep. Every time she found herself even the tiniest bit awake, she would crack her eyes open to take a peek up at Yoongi. And every time she looked at him it was always the same, she'd find him watching over her, protecting her. His expression was hard, with his eye slightly red as his gaze bounced between the window, balcony and door, but when he happened to turn his gaze down to Y/N one of the times she woke up, his expression would soften into a gentle smile. He'd quickly coax her back to sleep with a soothing purr before resuming his task.