i will follow you into the dark

break up

Jessey fell asleep on our way to the hotel. I manage to buy some comfy clothes from the stores on the lobby. As we enter the hotel room I laid her on the bed. I stare at her and seeing her sleeping gives me peace. I know that i should be going home right now and be with my girlfriend but there is this something inside me that prevents me to leave this beautiful lady. It's like I'm magnetized to her and i need to be wherever she goes. I know it's crazy because i just met her and i already care for her. Can that even be possible? Well i really don't know the answer to my own question. All i know is that i just want to make sure that she is okay before i go.

I tried to wake her up so she can freshen up and change to some comfy clothes before finally getting some rest.

She woke up and i can see a smile on her face when she saw me lying beside her. I can feel her gratitude for me staying with her.

I guide her to the bathroom, she was about to remove her clothes when i told her that i'll just wait her outside just to give her an assurance that i'm not gonna leave her but she stopped me. She grabbed my arm and removed my shirt.

Jessey: You don't need to go.

Ria: Ahhmm jess you're drunk i don't think you really want to do this so i'll just wait outside.

I can see tears threatening to fall from her eyes.

Jessey: I don't want to be alone... really i don't want you to go... Please stay...

My heart melted, and i no longer posses the power to oppose this beautiful lady's request.

We stared at each other as we slowly turn naked. I know this is wrong but when i look into her eyes i always get lost. Her eyes brings me into a world without consequences. I honestly don't care anymore i just wanna be with her. I wanted to take care of her.

As the water falls into our body she pulled me closer and our bodies entwine. Desire starts to grow inside me but i know that this is not just lust. There is a feeling of need and loving. She enclosed her hands on my nape and brushed her lips on mine. I didn't stop her. I wanted this to happen. No! I need this to happen. I need her and want her and I long for her. We kissed. Once, twice and then i realized that i can never get enough. I pulled her even closer and deepened the kiss. This feeling is brand new. It's a feeling that i've never had before.

It's already 7pm and my hunger awake me. I checked on jess and she is still asleep. I called the room service and ordered dinner good for 2 and a bottle of tequila.

I don't know what happened.

I have been committed for more than a year and never as in NEVER did i make out or hook up with anyone except Mika but.......... Jess. Jess was different there is something about her that i cannot resist. I felt like i was born to please her and do whatever she demands.

I was about to call Mika to check on her but i don't know what to tell her if she asks me where i'm at.

Of course i couldn't tell her that i am in a hotel room and just hooked up with a beautiful girl.

I threw my phone on the sofa and that's when i notice jess, standing and holding a glass of water from the kitchen.

Ria: Gising ka na pala.

Jessey: Yep kanina pa... i saw you about to call someone.

How can i tell her that i was trying to call my girlfriend? I looked at her and she was looking at the glass of water that she is holding looking like she find it interesting.

Jessey: Aalis ka na ba? IIwan mo na ba ako?

And there it goes again, Her fragility makes me weak. I don't want to see her crying.