i will follow you into the dark

truth hurts

Vic's POV

I received an email from the school that i will be required to join the practice for graduation march which will take place next week. 2 more weeks and i'll be graduating. Well I thought that i wouldn't be able to march since i already missed a lot but dad was able to make some adjustments with the school owner and they let me submit all the requirements and i was able to take my finals tests at home. they sent a professor to look out for me.

If you're wondering, it's been a month since the last time i saw Mika. I know i promised that i'll be back. She even told me that she will wait for me but my dad has been very insistent about George so he always set us up on dates and out of towns which was the main reason why i wasn't able to go back to school yet. Actually those extra time that i was able to spend with George helped me a lot. I know that i was confused a month ago. I thought that what we really needed was closure but she made me feel that she really love me and her feelings never changed even after she left. She made me feel important to her and that's why i decided to give us another chance. Yes kami na po ulet.

As much as I wanted to stay beside George i needed to go back to school because i need to attend the practice. Everything turned out fine. I never regret my choice to give George a second chance. My dad was pleased and My mind is at peace. I wanted to say that i am genuinely happy, but there's this small portion in my heart that is longing, i really miss Mika. Well don't get me wrong I am satisfied with my reconciliation with George i couldn't ask for more. I just wanted to see Mika. I left her with no explanation and i know that we need to discuss a lot of things.

It's lunchtime and I am heading to the pantry to see Mika for the first time after i left her.

I was on the entrance when i saw her sitting with Matt. She was actually leaning onto Matt's shoulder. I looked at her face and my whole world crumble. Devastation was written all over her face. She had pale skin, large eyebags, her cheekbones are more prominent which means she lost more weight, di ba niya kinakain mga pinapadala kong take outs for lunch? tsk tsk. I suddenly felt like my heart stopped and i feel like i'm in so much pain, too painful that my heart can no longer bare.

On my way here I've been trying to convince myself that I love George and that she is more than enough to complete me and make me happy but looking at Mika at this state. I can't take it. I wanna crush her body into mine and hug her tightly but I'm not ready with the confrontation. I'm so afraid that if she finds out about George that she will be distant and will be gone in my life completely. My tears started to fall and i just realize that i can't face her right now. I am not yet ready.

Mika's POV

it's been a hell of a month I haven't seen and communicated with Ara. I missed her so much and it is driving me nuts. I can't eat, i can't sleep, i can't function properly and all i can do is to fucking wait.

I'm just thankful that Matt and Cienne is here to comfort and stay with me. They were patient enough to wake me up everyday and help me get ready for school if not i wouldn't be here. During finals week i didn't even care about the exams before i wanted to ace all of my subjects but for now a fair grade will do. I was not supposed to attend the graduation practice today but the professors required us. Damn it Ara, you're causing me too much trouble.

The day is almost over, cienne decided to pick me up since she will be sleeping over at my place tonight to keep me company. An hour ago she said that she'll be here in any minute but where the hell is she?

It's almost 7 oclock and I think i'm the only one left in the vicinity so i decided to get my cellphone and call Cienne when i heard foot steps coming from the corridor. I peeked and at first i thought i was just hallucinating. I saw Ara walking on the corridor going to the parking lot. I tried following her and she was about to hop on her car when i decided to call her.

Mika: Ara?

She looked back and horror was drawn all over her face.

Mika: Kelan ka pa bumalik?

She bow her head and wiped her eyes..

Ara: I'm so sorry Mika but I'm in a hurry let's talk some other time.

All these days that i have been waiting, crazily thinking about her, feeling devastated and this is what i get from her? My heart was broken. I was so mad and i can't help but cry.

Mika: So, Ganoon nalang yun? busy ka at tsaka nalang tayo mag usap? The hell Ara, I'm going crazy. It's been a month since we talked and you left me hanging. Don't you think i deserve an explanation?

I can't help it. I think I've gone crazy and i confronted her with a raising tone. She was frozen, this is the first time that she saw me like this and i don't care anymore. I wanted to know what happened to her. I wanted to find out if she's still into me.

Ara's POV

It was horrifying when i saw Mika in the parking lot because i was hell afraid to talk to her.

Mika: So, Ganoon nalang yun? busy ka at tsaka nalang tayo mag usap? The hell Ara, I'm going crazy. It's been two weeks and you left me hanging. Don't you think i deserve an explanation?

How the hell am i gonna start telling her that i got back with George, that i can no longer see her and spent time with her. How can i say that i need to stop loving her?

I can't even stand looking at her. She looks so fragile, damn this girl always makes me cry. She truly deserves my honesty and explanation.

Ara: For God's sake, My heart tells me it's you but the things that keeps me holding on are winding Mika. Dad was insistent and i was able to spend more time with George. She made me feel that nothing changed, of all the things that happened it is still me after all.

I was trying to explain what happened when Mika ran to me and hugged me.

Mika: Pero ako na ang mahal mo diba? You said that we will have a wonderful future..... together.

Everything was true. it was surreal, when she hugged me it makes me regret my decision of going back with George but i need to make a wise decision. I know that it will hurt the both of us but i need to do this, if not i will just prolong her misery. I pushed her away and looked on the ground because i cant afford to stare at her.

Ara: Kami na ulit...

Her things fell on the ground so i looked at her. She dropped on her knees and her tears are continuously falling on the ground.

Mika: I believed in you Ara. I gave my heart to you. Now i don't know what to do.

I wanna pick her up and hold her in my arms to comfort her but i need to stay strong because i know that this is what's good for us.

Ara: I just want you to forget me and stay away from me.

Mika: Damn it... You are asking for too much Ara, You are asking me to get away from my life. It's like asking me to stop breathing. I strongly believe that there's nobody else who feels the way that i do for you. I need you Ara. I love you.

i wanted to tell her that i love her too...... so much! but i know that it won't help in our situation, but i can't commit to her when i know that i still have feelings for George. I, myself is confused so i need to work this out with George and figure it out. I can't love them both and i cannot ask her to stay with me while im with George i will be too selfish.

Ara: I'm sorry Mika but i love George.

then a petite girl stood in front of me and slapped me.

Mika: Cienne?

I saw cienne glaring at me.

Cienne: That pain is not enough for all the sufferings that you caused Mika.

I was so embarrassed realizing what i did to Mika. I looked at Mika at stared back at Cienne.

Ara: I'm sorry. I'm really sorry.

then i hastily hopped on my car ....