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Chapter 33

Here I am again. Lemuel literally dragging me to an old pick up at pinaupo ako sa passengers seat. Ano na naman ang binabalak nito. This past few days, I was doing the best simplest way to avoid this guy. Pero hindi ko magawa masyado because we are living in the same roof for the meantime. Regret is all over me. Curiosity kills the cat nga talaga. I was curious what would be Lemuel's mother but the exchange of it is Hell-pure hell with this hard headed guy.

"What?" Walang gana kong tanong dito.

"Lets talk. We really need to talk.." seryoso nitong sabi sa akin.

"You must hurry baka hanapin na ako ni Angel.."

"Nakakahalata si Mama.." and that's it! Hindi lang pala ako ang nakaobserve nito. "She keep on asking everything about our merriage.." he said and release a deep sigh.

Huminga ako ng malalim at tumingin sa labas ng bintana. "Just tell her the truth.."

"No.."  matigas na sabi nito

Napatingin ako kay Lemuel na nagtataka. "Bakit hindi? She deserve to know the truth.."

"Ayaw ko siyang masaktan Ara, you know that she has heart failure and if something wrong happen to her, hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko.."

"Fine, so anung gagawin mo?" Sabi ko at timingin sa malayo.

I didnt hear something from him. Nanatili kaming tahimik sa loob ng pick up. Siguro nag-iisip pa ito ng dapat na gagawin. Sana naman matapus na itong pagpapanggap namin. I wont risk telling the truth to Mama Luisa dahil tama si Lemuel, baka may mangyaring masama dito.

"Ara, listen.." nagulat ako nang magsalita ito. He held my hand and look at me seriously.

"What?" Naiilang kong tanong dito.

"What if..what if we pretend like were really inlove to each other?" Binawi ko ang kamay na hawak nito. No, I cant pretend, because the truth is Im still inlove with him pero hindi ko kayang ipakita ulit iyon.

"What the hell are you saying?" Sabi ko at lumayo dito.

"I know, you dont like the idea but we must try Ara.." sabi nito at tumingin sa malayo. "Im sorry if I drag you into this. Maybe Im just too selfish to think of myself only. But.." tumingin ito sa akin at hinawakan ulit ang kamay ko. "I love Mama Luisa so much, you know, ngayon lang siya nakauwi pagkatapos malalaman niya pang hiwalay ako sa asawa ko na ayaw niyang mangyari sa akin.."

Binawi ko ulit ang kamay na hawak niya. Umupo ako ng tuwid at nanahimik lang. "I know its all my fault why we broke up and Im asking you a favor na alam kong ayaw mong gawin.." patuloy nito at huminga ng malalim. "But if you dont like to, maybe I will find another way to explain Mama our situation.." napatingin ako dito. I saw him sigh at napahilamos. Natahimik ako, kung pagbibigyan ko si Lemuel, masasaktan na naman ako. And that's for sure. Pero nag-aalala rin ako sa situation namin.
I know, Mama Luisa is not my concern anymore. Pero i have a feeling that hindi ko rin ito gustong saktan. Bahala na.

I was about to say nang umalog ang pick up. "Hey!" Sigaw ni Rowella at sumampa sa ibabaw ng pick up. Nandito na naman ang madaldal kong bestfriend. "We saw you! Nagkabalikan na ba kayo?" She said. Napakainsensitive talaga ng ng bruhang to.

"We actually talking seriously here nang dumating ang madaldal sa katauhan ni Rowella.." pang-aasar ko dito.

Pinukpok nito ang bubong ng pick up. "Anung pinag-uusapan nyo? Are you deciding to have a second baby?"

Napatawa si Lemuel sa sinabi ni Rowella. Pinukpok ko rin ang bubong. "If I know, kayo yung gumawa kagabi eh, narinig kaya kita Rowella. Ang ingay mo nakakahiya ka.." pagbibiro ko dito and even if I didnt see her face, im sure it turned red this time.

Narinig ko ang tawa ni Sky. "See? I told you to moan only, not to shout.." napatawa kaming dalawa ni Lemuel at bahagyang umalog ang pick up. Nagbabangayan siguro ang dalawa.

"You know what guys? Mamasyal kaya tayo.." sabi ni Lemuel at nilabas ang susi sa bulsa nito. Medyo naexcite rin ako sa sinabi ni Lemuel.

"Oh yes! We gonna have a goodtime.." sigaw ni Rowella at naramdaman naming bumaba sila sa itaas ng pick up at umupo sa likod. Lemuel hold my hand and I look at him. He smile at lalong hinigpitan pa ang pagkahawak sa kamay ko. Nagtataka man ay hinayaan ko nalang ito at tumingin sa labas ng bintana.