Running With Wolves || 5sos ||

Thirty

•Alexis•

1 month...it's been a whole 31 days without Calum and I feel like I'm being teared apart from the inside. This is a totally different situation compared to the time when Luke was gone.

I knew that Luke was alive and well somewhere, as for Calum, I know that he's dead and that his body is rotting out in the middle of the forest.

I shut my eyes tightly and willed myself not to think about him. It was still so painful. Unfortunately, my mind wandered and I ended up seeing Calum dying in my arms once again.

I couldn't stop the whole thing playing in my head and before I knew it, hot tears were streaming down my cheeks and sobs were echoing throughout the cabin.

Oh yeah, we were planning on leaving this whole place behind since Ash had gotten so much better and there is just way too many painful memories in this cabin, but Michael, who was now Alpha since he was the second one bitten decided that we would leave when all of us were done grieving. None of us were even close to being done doing so.

I tensed up when I felt a pair of arms wrap around me. It didn't really help me stop crying because I knew that it wasn't Calum, but it did calm me down at least a little bit.

The person who was comforting me who I recognized as Luke, was whispering that it'll be okay and that everything will get better.

This is the 5th time that I've woken up Luke in the past few days. It always seems to be him that comes to calm me down and I don't know why, but I am definitely grateful that he does.

"Another nightmare?" Luke asked softly as he rubbed circles on my back.

I shook my head. "I was awake and I started thinking about what happened to him." I said, a few tears still slipping out of my eyes.

I felt Luke nod his head. "Everything is going to be fine Lex, he may not be here with us physically, but he'll always be with us spiritually."

"I know Luke. It just hurts knowing that I won't be able to see him again." I said in between sniffles.

He softly kissed the top of my head and sighed. "I'm here for you Alexis, I always will be."

I looked up into his blue eyes and noticed that he had been crying too. His eyes had a tinge of red in them, his cheeks were puffy and his hair was standing out everywhere. "I know Luke. Thank you." I said with a small smile.

He shrugged his shoulders. "It's what I'm here for."

I chuckled and placed my head back on his chest. The tears had stopped coming out and my breath was coming out normal now. The next few words that slipped out of my mouth were a complete accident.

"Luke? Do you love me?" I asked quietly.

I instantly regretted saying that and mentally cursed myself. Why would I put myself and Luke into an uncomfortable and awkward situation like that? If Luke had imprinted on me, then yes he would love me. God, I am so stupid.

I waited a moment before he answered. "Do you want to know that truth Alexis?" He whispered.

I didn't answer, I just simply nodded against his chest.

"I think so." He said simply. "But it doesn't matter now. You chose Calum, we have already went over this Alexis. We can't be together anyways."

"Luke?"

"Yes?"

I looked up at him then, my brown eyes meeting his bright blue ones and I knew that by asking this question, my problems could be solved. This could be the only way that my life may go back to "normal". The thing I was about to ask may let me be happy again.

"Kiss me."

"W-what?" He stuttered.

"Just do it." I said, straining my voice. "Please."

And he did. He kissed me so passionately that it was almost unreal. My fingers slowly made there way to tug on his hair and his hands were then placed firmly on my waist.

This was the second time that I had kissed Luke and I'm not going to lie, I felt something the first time and I feel something again. I think that since I had spent so much time thinking that I loved and imprinted on Calum, that I had never considered that I had imprinted on Luke. Sure there was the time that resulted in him getting kicked out of the pack, but I never really, truly thought about imprinting on him. Maybe I have.

Our little make out session was cut short when Luke pulled away, wide eyed and out of breath. "Alexis, I-I don't know about this, I feel like I've betrayed Calum a second time." He stuttered.

Understanding where he was coming from, I nodded my head. "I know, and i know that I definitely rushed things there. But I want you to know that I do think I have feelings for you Luke, and their strong. These past few nights, months even, you have been there for me and I never really thought about how much you were actually doing for me. My own best friend hasn't been there for me as much as you have." I said referring to Becca.

I couldn't blame her though, she was almost always worrying about how Ashton was.

"I know." Luke said with a half smile. "It's just that- well I don't know, since I've imprinted on you, I want to make sure that you have actually imprinted on me."

I took a moment to reply, thinking about what to say to him. "I guess we'll have to just go along with it and try to figure it all out." I said.

He nodded, making some of his golden locks fall into his eyes. "That sounds good I guess. So what happens now?"

"Don't know." I said with a shrug. "I don't want to be classified as anything right now, I still think it's early. Plus I'm still obviously not over Cal...and I hope you respect that."

"Of course I do Alexis. This-us, I mean is going to take some time. And I'll wait as long as I have to, to call you mine." Luke said with a large smile.

My heart leaped at the sight of him and I realized that the decision I had made was a good one.

I hugged Luke tightly and he hugged back. I wanted to stay like this, in each others arms for as long as I could.

I don't know if I'm rushing all of this or not, but being "with" Luke feels right. He will never be Calum and I assure you I am not replacing him, I just want my happiness back, and I think being with Luke will help me achieve that...

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