So This Is Love?

CHAPTER 5 | I Know You're Worth Fighting For, I'd Fight For You

Song is "Fix You" by Coldplay. I think it goes with this chapter xx

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Loving can hurt. Loving can hurt sometimes. But it's the only thing that I know - "Photograph" by Ed Sheeran 

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CHAPTER 5 ~ Zach's POV

I have to win Brooke over. I've majorly stuffed up. I need her forgiveness. But how could I do that? I swear she is the most complicated person I know. I walk out of my room and into the study where my mum, Suzanne, is sitting. My mum is currently sitting at the couch we have in the corner of the room and is reading a novel. Which? I have no clue. She reads about 3 books a week, it amazes me that she has the time to read so much. She has long brown hair and blue eyes which look exactly like my brothers.

"Hey mum!" I walk over to her and kiss her on the cheek "How are you?" I ask her.

"I'm great, Zach, How are you?" she asks me.

"I've been better." I state referring to everything that's currently happening with Brooke.

"What's on your mind?" mum asks me.

"Well I think I have majorly screwed up." I tell her. Hopefully mum knows what I should do to win Brooke over.

"How so?" she asks looking concerned.

"Well I said something and this girl completely misunderstood. I was just trying to open up to her and instead I messed everything up." I explain to her.

"Oh? And who is this girl? Anyone I know?" Mum asks grinning.

"Brooke." I sigh and mum's grin gets bigger. How did she know that I was talking about Brooke? Am I that obvious?

"Well I know Brooke is a smart girl. She will figure out that she has misinterpreted what you said. You just have to give her time." she says wisely.

"But what if she doesn't figure that out and she doesn't forgive me?" I ask feeling hopeless.

"Then you fight for forgiveness." Mum says smiling. "That would do you some good. Zach, you know I love you but ever since Emma you have stopped putting effort into what you do. You've stopped putting effort into life. You just slack off and you seem to be existing not living. That's a terrible way to live. If you aren't living then your half dead. The world is full of so many amazing opportunities and you're just throwing them away. I know what happened to Emma has affected you but I think you're forgetting it affected all of us, not just you. And let me tell you now, if Emma was here right now she wouldn't be happy with who you are becoming. I know how harsh I sound but Zach I just want the best for you. I want you to be happy. I want you to love and I know that you love Brooke. So go after her. Don't let her go like you do all of the opportunities that present themselves. If there is ever an opportunity that I would beg you to take, being with Brooke is it because I've noticed how happy you've been lately and you may not realise it but I think the old Zach is coming back. When he returns, let me tell you now, he will be welcomed with open arms." Mum tells me and it isn't until now that I realise just how unhappy I am. Mum's right, I'm just existing. But it's not fair that I can do all the things Emma can't. She doesn't get to do so many things so why should I?

"Baby, don't cry." Mum says and it's only now I realise that I'm crying. I fall to the ground crying. Life isn't fair. Why us? Why her? Why? She didn't deserve this. Mum hugs me as I cry into her shoulder and I can feel her crying too. Neither of us say anything to each other for a while. But I think we just needed to cry for a while. To let our emotions take over.