So This Is Love?

CHAPTER 7 | It's Not Worth It

Song is "Sugar" By Robin Schulz

CHAPTER 7 ~ Zach's POV

It's only been 3 days and this 'Giving Brooke time' thing is excruciating. I just want to talk to her. Why can't she just understand how I feel about her and how I never meant to hurt her feelings? Without her presence school is unbearable. Since going to see Em I haven't been able to work up the strength to get out of bed. What's the point? The chances of ever going out with Brooke are very, very slim and I really just need Em to help me, to give me advice.

"Honey, it's time for school." My mum says frowning slightly as she stands at my bedroom door.

"Can I stay home?" I ask, putting on my best sad face so that she will cave and let me stay home.

"Only if you promise to go to school tomorrow." Mum bargains.

"Fine." I sigh and roll onto my side, facing away from mum.

"Honey, what's wrong? You've been very down recently." Mum says as she walks over to me and sits on the end of my bed.

"It's nothing, really." I say trying to convince her.

"I know that's far from the truth." Mum says coaxing me into talking about my feelings and so I reluctantly comply.

"Well, since I went to see Em I guess I've been really upset and everything with Brooke isn't helping." I frown as I tell mum. "And I just really need Em, Mum. She would be helping me through everything with Brooke if she was here. I just need her right now but she can't help me anymore." A tear falls down my face as I voice my troubles.

"Oh honey, I know it's hard right now. But it does get better. It's been two years and you have been sad and happy so you should know it gets better. You have gotten better and this is just a bump in the road." Mum comforts.

"But that's the thing, mum. I haven't been happy since Em. I've seemed happy but I have never been actually happy with the exception of a couple of conversations with Brooke." I tell her.

"Want to know my advice about Brooke?" Mum asks me and I nod in response.

"If she hasn't forgiven you by the end of the week you need to start fighting. Fight like hell, honey. If she is the only thing that has brought you happiness in this time of grief then she is worth the fight." Mum encourages filling me with a new sense of motivation. I need to win her back.

"So, are you still going to stay home today?" Mum asks and I nod my head. Mum frowns, obviously hoping her little pep talk would change my attitude about going to school.

"Alright. But remember, tomorrow you are going to school whether you like it or not." Mum reminds me and then walks out of my room.

I then close my eyes and fall into a deep sleep.

...

Walking into school immediately decreases my mood. Funny how school always does that.

I start to walk up to Ace but realise that he is talking to Brooke so I turn around and go to find Chase which is a harder task than it sounds. Eventually giving up I walk outside and sit on the hood of my car texting my cousin Finn.

Long-time no talk, don't you think.

I text Finn in the hopes that he can distract me until the bell finally decides to ring.

Yeah. We should talk more often.

Finn texts back and so we continue to text back and forth until I see a figure walking towards me.