Poison in my veins (BoyxBoy)

heaven and hell don't care

heaven knows I'm miserable now

JG• ~2 days later~

I wanted to cry a billion tears for how hurt I was,wanted to scream till my throat was numb for how sad my soul was.

It ha been 2 days since my angel got mad at me,2 days since he asked why I always got so close only to fall back like the coward I was internally.

2 days seems so small in time honestly,like a small fragment of a mirror that's broken into a million shiny pieces that'll cut with care in a million different ways.

2 days is nothing in all honesty.

But to me...it felt like an eternity,a million years that stung with bad memories and many unsaid words and thoughts.

2 days felt like forever when the love of my life wouldn't speak to me,wouldn't even look at me as we continued on our travels.

Ever since I almost snapped he hasn't spoken,coming so close to snapping it physically hurt all the way down to my toes.

I was so close,small body moving perfectly against me and needy sounds slipping had me reeling in dirty thoughts and delicious images.

His body was becoming too hard to resist,the sounds he made haunted my nightmares which became dreams the second he appeared in them.

I knew I couldn't take much more then,knew I was reaching my breaking point and surely soon all the pieces I held together would break.

quick quick look! the evil monster is losing his mind! all because of blonde hair and pale soft sweet skin,look!

When my lips devoured his I was becoming lost,too lost to care about the things my mind shouted at me.

Too lost to care about the things I shouldn't do and why I shouldn't do them.

Too lost to care about all the things that could happen if I snapped and all the hell I would get from souls I despised.

I was in too deep to care about anything,just wanted those lips to drive me head first into a sweet tooth coma that would leave me shaking from withdrawal if I ever tasted something that wasn't his.

I wanted it so bad my bones felt like they were burning,shaking and shivering inside me it was painful but it was by far the most delicious pain I'd ever felt and fuck did I love it.

He was so beautiful and so perfect and I wanted nothing more than to show him how amazing he was,how flawless and angelic and absolutely breathtaking he truly was.

I wanted nothing more than to make him feel good,was dying to show him how good he could feel it was making my aches ache with this pain.

I wanted so badly to just give up,throw in the towel as the stupid saying goes and give him all the things he deserved that would make those blue beautiful orbs roll up high.

My sanity was leaving and I didn't care,as long as loud moans slipped pink lips and ghosts of pleasure floated Through hazy dazy blown eyes as toes curled up repeatedly in bliss.

I didn't care as long as I could finally give him the things he wanted,as long as I could finally give in and pleasure him with things that would have him squealing in ecstasy and clawing my spine hard enough I bled.

I was close,honestly.

Honest to demons with ears and gods with shiny golden crowns,I was close to doing it.

Honestly.

I wanted it so so fucking badly.

But at that moment...two things happened.